Pefection in Sunrises

IMG 1898 Pefection in Sunrises, a photo by Images @ Melonpopzdropz on Flickr.

“We have not wings we cannot soar; but, we have feet to scale and climb, by slow degrees, by more and more, the cloudy summits of our time.”
Henry Wadsworth Longfellow

Twenty four years ago today I went into labor for the very first time ever and I was in labor for 36 hours so Jesse's Birthday is not until tomorrow.  It is nice to think back and remember those fun times of how Sheena got lost and was gone with the heater for three hours.  When she returned I didn't need the heater then.  So this is the  eve of another birthday I won't have to opportunity to wish him happy birthday.   This effects me in a strange sort of way.  It hurts my heart so deeply.  I really don't understand why such a misunderstanding could be carried on for so long.
I think it is very sad and I think that all three of my children need to look at this a little more carefully.  They are being very standoffish and they are feeding off each others negativity in the situation.  By now I am sure I have two heads in their imaginings. 

Montana is so worried to stand up to them as well.  This is what she tells me.  She says they intimidate her too much regarding me and its all too hard for her to deal with to keep them all happy.  So in order to do that she does what she does.  Fair enough.  I am no one.  I have nothing they need and I rent so therefore according  to them I am a loser.

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“We have not wings we cannot soar; but, we have feet to scale and climb, by slow degrees, by more and more, the cloudy summits of our time.”
Henry Wadsworth Longfellow

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"But when Oarion and Seirios are come into mid-heaven, and rosy-fingered Eos (Dawn) sees Arktouros in September, then cut off all the grape-clusters." -

 Hesiod, Works and Days 

 People from the Blue Star Sirius

We are all star people.  We look up in the sky and we wish on stars.   We say our departed loved ones are the stars that we can see at night and we sing nursery rhymes about these twinkling little entities.  They are where we originated from.  It is our heritage. Our star heritage.

Those who have Sirius as their planetary origin are very focused, very determined and set on whatever path they are on at a given time. It is very difficult to change the mind of one from Sirius, but once they have become convinced that a new "path" is more appropriate, they become totally focused on the new, and release the old quickly. Sirians have strong beliefs, ideals and personal integrity.

The word Sirius was used interchangeably for both the constellation Canis Major, and the alpha star. Sirius is a Latinized version of Greek seirios, translated 'scorching', and signifying brightness and heat, from seiraino, 'dry up, parch'.

Sirius was associated with the hottest part of summer, the Dog Days, and also with causing the Nile floods because the heat causes ice and snow to melt on mountains which flows into rivers.

The rising of Sirius marked the commencement of the ancient Egyptian new (sidereal) year, the annus canarius and annus cynicus of the Roma.

The Canary Islands are named after Sirius / Canis Major .. Because of the amount of wild dogs he found there.

Oarion   -  Orion
Seirios   -   Sirius

Images @ Melonpopzdropz Flickr

I paint my own reality.

"The only thing I know is that I paint because I need to, and I paint whatever passes through my head without any other consideration."
~Frida Kahlo~

To sit and paint with a brush or to create with beads or flowers or seeds or rubbish like these can lids above I painted, whichever medium you choose, this will be a meditation time.  If only others understood the great benefits from sitting and creating and letting the mind have a rest and concentrate only on a small stitch or a tiny dollop of paint in a single dot.  This is meditation in action and if you allow your mind to be filled with the work you are doing and the story it tells it is healing to your spirit.
This is beautiful spirit work when it happens.  For me it is like I go to another place and I welcome the moments when I feel overcome to paint symbols.

By Mezza - Images @ Melonpopzdropz on Flickr

Never accept to be someones second choice, You deserve more.

Never be that one who suffers this feeling that attacks your core belief in your self and you're abilities.
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The planning of the trip is now happening and the pulling together of all of our stuff to take with us.  This is going to be a mission to fact find also.  We need to know what we are up against.

It has been something I have always wanted to do.  I always felt this strong about it.  I have wanted to go but I never could before.

Image by Mezza - Ring of wire up high..

You can give joyfully only when you have found something so valuable within yourself that everything else does not mean so much to you anymore.

Bharat Chaudhary...

IMG 3051 Wise She Oaks, a photo by Images @ Melonpopzdropz on Flickr.

That would be a true state of enlightenment.  To feel that nestled by mother earth and the universe.  This is bliss to even imagine this.  I think even pondering this is beautiful for my spirit. The thoughts alone excite me that this is even possible.
Love and Light from within is a resonating energy source from where we draw from and its symbiotic so make small steps towards attaining this state of being and the universe will reciprocate accordingly and be a good steward of the small bit and bigger things will manifest into existence in perfect balance ... just make a step.
I wish I could step towards my son and step out of this nighmare of grief.  It is more than unbearable and I have to remember we all have gifts and this is all I hang on to while the fire burns and refines me into something so pure.   
Until then Love and Light.

Image by Mezza - The ancient oaks at Hungry Head .

The only thing standing between you and your goal is the bullshit story you keep telling yourself as to why you can’t achieve it.

-  Jordan Belfort -

For me I really have to step out of my comfort zone.  I really want to go and I will go.  I will have to be good though as I am so naughty because I talk myself out of doing what I want frequently.  Too many opportunities have been lost because I listened to what others had to say.

Image by Mezza - The Chain Fence in Urunga's main street building projects.

Sometimes we have to say good bye to the ones who mean the most to us, Because usually they are the ones who are slowly killing us inside!

This is harder than anything I have ever done to date in my life.  I have had to do this alone and with much judgement and zero understanding.  For this I thank no one.

Many memories just there in front of me to remind me of these things.  The Vase that was on the dutchess the entire time that my children were growing still looks at me and sparkles the same.  It sparkles the same and I don't and that can make me cry sometimes.  I don't mind it sparkling its only the  memories I don't like.

Image by Mezza - The Chrystal in the sunshine

If we pursued peace the way we pursue money heaven would touch Earth.

Anthony Douglas Williams / Inside the Divine Pattern

The Western sky in May 2012 ( 24th May)

I have been reading about alchemy and the Khem as it was known in ancient times.  I find this all very interesting as it has great bearing on what the planets are doing in the sky and the relation to this in the earths response.  The symbols of the seven metals interest me a lot too.  Mercury being the astrological symbol of Jupiter.  


Cymist = chemist

Mercury, called quicksilver by the ancients was used to make red mercuric oxide by heating the element in a solution of nitric acid. The reaction of quicksilver in nitric acid is striking as a thick red vapor hovers over the surface and bright red crystals precipitate to the bottom. Alchemists were convinced that mercury transcended both the solid and liquid states, both earth and heaven, both life and death.

ALCHEMY EXPLAINED

 The art of alchemy was handed down through the centuries from Egypt and Arabia to Greece and Rome, and finally to western and central Europe. The word is derived from the Arabian phrase "al-kimia," which refers to the preparation of the Stone or Elixir by the Egyptians. The Arabic root "kimia" comes from the Coptic "khem" that alluded to the fertile black soil of the Nile delta. Esoterically and hieroglyphically, the word refers to the dark mystery of the primordial or First Matter (the Khem).

Simplified, the aims of the alchemists were threefold: to find the Stone of Knowledge (The Philosophers' Stone), to discover the medium of Eternal Youth and Health, and to discover the transmutation of metals. To the medieval alchemist’s mind the different elements were but the same original substance in varying degrees of purity. Gold was the purest of all and silver followed closely.

In the early days of alchemy, the astronomical signs of the planets were also used as alchemical symbols. Then in the centuries of medieval persecution and suppression every alchemist invented his own secret symbols. Charlatans, quacks and cheats took over and alchemy became, along with sorcery and witchcraft, infamous for fraud and extortion. In the 18th century scientists tried to pry loose the real achievements in chemistry, pharmacology and medicine from this confusing cornucopia of science and magic.

"The primary cause of unhappiness is never the situation but your thoughts about it."

Eckhart Tolle.

Mum and Dad

Damn you thoughts.  I thought as we drove off from home, I should have checked the camera's battery.  Wouldn't you know it, I get to these trees and the  battery went flat.  I should either have listened to myself or not thought such a thought.  I wonder which of these was the culprit for this.  Either way it taught me a valuable lesson.  Check all of your equipment before checking out of the house on an image run.

August is getting closer and setting off with Vee Ness is going to be a good thing for me I hope.  I feel like I want to do more than sit here and paint can lids sometimes and I need some new photography to shoot always.  Any where in this country is great to photograph. 

The rant on how I have been feeling along the way:

No way will I give into the thoughts.  I will stand and fight them head on any day of the week.  It is like there is another person now though.  Someone who agrees with Them.  This is the curse of being an active thinker and person who questions and quizzes everything from start to finish.

I have been somewhat unhappy for a few weeks now.  I have struggled with a situation regarding a friend.  I had one of those psychic impressions about the situation.  I saw it and I was feeling so sick from this time onwards.  I will not elaborate on the situation but I will say I knew and felt that my friend had been set up and that the entire thing stank of a set up.  There were lots of things that I saw.   Today I had a visit from another friend who  confirmed to me that what I had seen had in fact taken place.

Image by Mezza - Two loving Trees at Perry's Hill.

Your energy is just balancing itself.

Home is now here. We are all finally coming home.

almost to the top here

1. Feeling as though you are in a pressure cooker or in intense energy; feeling stress. Remember, you are adjusting to a higher vibration and you will eventually adjust. Old patterns, behaviors and beliefs are also being pushed to the surface. There is a lot going on inside of you.

2. A feeling of disorientation; not knowing where you are; a loss of a sense of place. You are not in 3D anymore, as you have moved or in the process of moving into the higher realms.

3. Unusual aches and pains throughout different parts of your body. You are purifying and releasing blocked energy vibrating at 3D, while you are vibrating in a higher dimension.

4. Waking at night between 2 and 4 a.m. Much is going on in your dream state. You can't be there for long lengths of time and need a break. This is also the 'cleansing and releasing' hour.

5. Memory loss. A great abundance of short term memory loss and only vague remembrances of your past. You are in more than one dimension at a time, and going back and forth as part of the transition, you are experiencing a 'disconnect'. Also, your past is part of the Old, and the Old is forever gone. Being in the Now is the way of the New World.

6. 'Seeing' and 'hearing' things. You are experiencing different dimensions as you transition, all according to how sensitive you are and how you are wired.

7. Loss of identity. You try to access the Old you, but it is no longer there. You may not know who you are looking at in the mirror. You have cleared much of your old patterns and are now embodying much more light and a simpler, more purified divine you. All is in order, You are okay.

8. Feeling 'out of body'. You may feel as though someone is talking, but it is not you. This is our natural defense mechanism of survival when we are under acute stress or feeling traumatized or out of control. Your body is going through a lot and you may not want to be in it. My ascension guide told me that this was a way of easing the transition process, and that I did not need to experience what my body was going through. This only lasted a short time. It passes.

9. Periods of deep sleeping. You are resting from all the acclimating and are integrating, as well as building up for the next phase.

10. Heightened sensitivities to your surroundings. Crowds, noise, foods, TV, other human voices and various other stimulation is barely tolerable. You also overwhelm very easily and become easily overstimulated. You are tuning up. Know that this will eventually pass.

11. You don't feel like doing anything. You are in a rest period, 'rebooting'. Your body knows what it needs. In addition, when you begin reaching the higher realms, 'doing' and 'making things happen' becomes obsolete as the New energies support the feminine of basking, receiving, creating, self-care and nurturing. Ask the Universe to 'bring' you what you want while you are enjoying yourself and having fun.

12. An intolerance for lower vibrational things of the 3D, reflected in conversations, attitudes, societal structures, healing modalities, etc. They literally make you feel 'sick' inside. You are in a higher vibration and your energies are no longer in alignment. You are being 'pushed, to move forward; to 'be' and create the New.

13. A loss of desire for food. Your body is adjusting to a new, higher state of being. Also, part of you does not want to be here anymore in the Old.

14. A sudden disappearance of friends, activities, habits, jobs and residences. You are evolving beyond what you used to be, and these people and surroundings no longer match your vibration. The New will soon arrive and feel so-o-o-o much better.

15. You absolutely cannot do certain things anymore. When you try to do your usual routine and activities, it feels downright awful. You are evolving beyond what you used to be, and these people and surroundings no longer match your vibration. The New will soon arrive and feel so-o-o-o much better.

16. Days of extreme fatigue. Your body is losing density and going through intense restructuring.

17. A need to eat often along with what feels like attacks of low blood sugar. Weight gain, especially in the abdominal area. A craving for protein. You are requiring an enormous amount of fuel for this ascension process. Weight gain with an inability to loose it no matter what you do is one of the most typical experiences. Trust that your body knows what it is doing.

18. Experiencing emotional ups and downs; weeping. Our emotions are our outlet for release, and we are releasing a lot.

19. A wanting to go Home, as if everything is over and you don't belong here anymore. We are returning to Source. Everything is over, but many of us are staying to experience and create the New World. Also, our old plans for coming have been completed.

20. Feeling you are going insane, or must be developing a mental illness of some sort. You are rapidly experiencing several dimensions and greatly opening. Much is available to you now. You are just not used to it. Your awareness has been heightened and your barriers are gone. This will pass and you will eventually feel very at Home like you have never felt before, as Home is now here.

21. Anxiety and panic. Your ego is losing much of itself and is afraid. Your system is also on overload. Things are happening to you that you may not understand. You are also losing behavior patterns of a lower vibration that you developed for survival in 3D. This may make you feel vulnerable and powerless. These patterns and behaviors you are losing are not needed in the higher realms. This will pass and you will eventually feel so much love, safety and unity. Just wait.

22. Depression. The outer world may not be in alignment with the New, higher vibrational you. It doesn't feel so good out there. You are also releasing lower, darker energies and you are 'seeing' through them. Hang in there.

23. Vivid, wild and sometimes violent dreams. You are releasing many, many lifetimes of lower vibrational energy. Many are now reporting that they are experiencing beautiful dreams. Your dream state will eventually improve and you will enjoy it again. Some experience this releasing while awake. My mother commented one day that she believed I was having nightmares in the daytime.

24. Night sweats and hot flashes. Your body is 'heating' up as it burns off residue.

25. Your plans suddenly change in mid-stream and go in a completely different direction. Your soul is balancing out your energy. It usually feels great in this new direction, as your soul knows more than you do. It is breaking your 'rut' choices and vibration.

26. You have created a situation that seems like your worst nightmare, with many 'worst nightmare' aspects to it. Your soul is guiding you into 'stretching' into aspects of yourself where you were lacking, or into 'toning down' aspects where you had an overabundance. Your energy is just balancing itself. Finding your way to peace through this situation is the test you have set up for yourself. This is your journey, and your soul would not have set it up if you weren't ready. You are the one who finds your way out and you will. Looking back, you will have gratitude for the experience and be a different person.

Ascension Symtoms   http://whatsuponplanetearth.com

Image by Mezza - The Barn from the turn of another century not this one.  Next to pilot house in Urunga

I have allowed the Unknown to affect me - Meditation

 The meditative state is a state that used to have a law on me entering.  I found it very difficult to be able to  still my mind to a point where nothing was going on.  The more I tried the harder it was.  I was being in a state of trying and this is not meditation. So I gave up.

I gave up for a long long time.  I even tried substances to take me to that place of where ever I felt I needed to be.  The substances worked for a tiny while.  I became bored with that and at a young age. There was one other time I felt myself rise to that level.  This was  when I gave birth to my son, my first child.  I was in that same state for some six hours post the birth of this child.  I felt the energy rise up my spine like someone was shooting a fire hose of warm water up the length of my back and into my head and then spilling all over me.  I felt like I could run up Mt Everest I was so enlivened by this energy inside of my body.  This was the Kundalini.  which is most certainly present during the birth process.  I would love to know more about this now also.

My life has now been long and off and on through out my life I have participated in other various meditations but it was always a similar outcome.  My bones would get itchy and restless.  I wanted to flex and fight this feeling.  Its a funny sensation to feel this in your body. 

I wanted to still my mind.  I wanted the healing that comes with this stilling.  I didn't give up!  So I think this is half the key.  Don't ever give up completely.  Walk away and take a break but don't give up.  I finally found a way

I  understand the concept of seeing yourself in your own minds eye.  This is where I started and I only did this for very short periods.  But I found this even a challenge.  To really close my eyes and visualize myself looking at myself.   Finally.... success.  Finally, I was able to do this.  I commenced this after sun gazing each day and found that I could communicate with the animals while in this state of consciousness.  Not talk like we talk.  It was a mind thing where I was impressing on their brain my thoughts.  Interesting as sometimes this worked well, especially with the dog and her behavior.   If winter was not here, and the dog tucked in her bed, we may be a little further along with that.  She doesn't want to get out in the cold though but summer is coming, so there will be time again to do this with her in the  future.

I felt great changes occur inside of me almost the same week I commenced this.  Like my brain was opening up and sucking in stuff like a vacuum cleaner like manner.  The answers to an array of questions I have carried around for years came in the space of a week.  My body was buzzing. 

I really felt like I was being switched on.  Then, out of the blue I was overwhelmed with the urge to go paint.  I scoured the cupboards for old paints I used with the kids, I found them and they were all dried up.  Good, I thought, more rubbish to loose.  Next morning I went down to the shops and bought a cheap set of Oil Paints  and started to paint.  I painted for 48 hours with a 6 hour break non stop.  I was compelled to paint these blessed things.  They were my tin can lids I had lovingly prepared for some decoration but nothing on the scale of what I actually painted.  These are earmarked for my Canowind Chimes inventions.

Brice fed me cuppas and I stayed fairly silent.  Stopping for light conversation only with my partner during this time.  He was fascinated also.  He knows I am not a painter of art.  I love art but I have not really ever considered myself capable of painting very much at all.  I was more of a house painter.

Some of the questions answered were regarding the civilization I heard of in the Pacific that is now mostly on the bottom of the ocean.  These were things I was questioning.  The Easter Island statues,  Coconut water, Mangoes.  A wonderful woman named Beverley pointed me in the right direction.  People were there when I needed them in perfect timing. I had now  read the Ancient books of Mu by James Churchward.

 There was so much information and many beautiful diagrams of what he wrote about what he had seen and had interpreted by the Rishi Priest.  Then it started, my mind was all but saying to me, "Come on lets paint".  Like a David Bowie song lyric, Lets Dance.  It was echoing in my head to do this.  AMAZING.  The results even amazed me.  24 beautiful discs all decorated in the most intricate and ancient designs and each one echoing the glyphs from the cuneiform tablets found in temples that told the stories of Lemuria.

I felt myself falling into the well of ancient love.  I could feel this was really healthful.  It was peaceful as I sat and brushed so delicately and precisely the lines and the dots.  The beginning was highlighted with much dot work like I had recently witnessed at Uluru in Central Australia.  The dots seem to morph onto straight and precise patterns and lines with feeling.

The artists impressions in meditation

What I can report of myself after this occurred is a much greater sense of awareness and a feeling of warmth emanating from me.  I stood barefoot on the cool winter ground bare foot and my feet were not cold.  It is Winter and I was fine, and that is unusual as I am the one who clings to any warmth, commonly known as the heat leech.   I fully feel the change is now in full swing.  The meditation, the suns beams, my pineal gland is like swelling in my head sometimes.  This could be the reason for the strange headaches too.

Exerpts from Osho

One day, suddenly, you will find a window opens, and a fresh breeze with new rays has filled your heart. Again, don’t commit the same mistake! Be thankful for what is happening, but don’t ask for more — and more will be coming. Don’t ask, “Come again” — your asking will become the barrier.

It will come again, it will come more often. Slowly, slowly it becomes your heartbeat; waking, sleeping, it is always there, it never goes. But it is not your doing. You cannot brag that “I have done it.” You can only say, “I have allowed the unknown to do it to me.” It is always from the unknown that great experiences enter into our small hearts, and when we are trying hard to get them, we become so tense that the very tension prevents them.

I have allowed the unknown to do this to me.  Yes and I knew it was all absolutely fine.  It was as though I was feeling the plasma falling around me and soaking in the crevices of my body.  That is how warm it was and what I was feeling.  I shall not push. I will wait.

For the record .. You must say this out loud to believe it and say it with an Indian Accent so it means something.

" Religion is a bondage.  It keeps you unaware of your unawareness."
Bhagwan Shree Rajneesh

Osho Image - http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/File:Osho.jpg

Image by Mezza - Brice's Lizard Magnet and Montana's 'Warning Sign' Don't cook.

Emasse this Gas Madness

 

Emasse this Gas Madness
Fighting Coal Seam Gas
All their rosey forecasts
Tara ain't no gasoline alley
Get with the program and tally
Sitting under a sally wattle
With a water bottle that cant be drunk ..
and pipes trucked in and fully sunk..
The smell is rank
and there's death in alla the water tanks ..
Who is it now,  I was supposed to thank?

Oh yeah, thanks Julia with the red red hair..
We all knew you was lying
and we knew you never cared.
Your impaired ..
coz motherhood scared you
and you never dared..
You just ok'd another disgrace down at LEARD..
Nah I'm straight
 I got this fully squared
coz you're bitch polly who played switch dolly..
and I'm not gonna be your soft molly!
I wanna shut you down like the Ford shop trolley..

Got me a deep deep frown
As deep as the holes you left in my mothers ground 
It's deep and its hell spreading round
And down here on the ground
Where the people are told to shut up 

and Don't make a sound

You betcha I will not be drowned
by this bullshit you
designed to confound

I will still come up for air ....
wait coz we will be watching you're despair
yeah yeah ..
I think that would be fairly fair
considering the lands
and all of this you've murdered
and impaired
Leaving us Zero hope of ever being repaired.

Word and photographs by Mezza 2012

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Saturdays are such Awesomeness..

SAM 7828 Promised Land, a photo by Images @ Melonpopzdropz on Flickr.

For Saturday ...
It was a day to clean up around the house and fix all of my photographs today on flickr a little bit better and look at ordering business cards for Melonpopzdropz now.  Yippee.

I have so many images to load yet still.  I do however have the terabyte in top condition and very tidy and easy to find what I am looking for.  The job has been very laborious and a little tiresome and my eyes hurt so much from doing this.  But it is worth it in the end as they are beginning to look like something now and even I can see these well and I can utilize them easily.  Well done to me I say.

Image by Mezza - Rock at Christmas Holes Gleniffer NSW

Upon suffering beyond suffering.......

...The Red Nation shall rise again and it shall be a blessing for a sick world.  A world filled with broken promises, selfishness and separations. A world longing for light again.

I see a time of Seven Generations when all the colors of mankind will gather under the Sacred Tree of Life and the whole Earth will become one circle again.


In that day, there will be those among the Lakota who will carry knowledge and understanding of unity among all living things and the young white ones will come to those of my people and ask for this wisdom. 

I salute the light within your eyes where the whole Universe dwells. For when you are at that center within you and I am that place within me, we shall be one."
- Crazy Horse, Oglala Sioux Chief

And so that is why we have no common sense .. we killed the good ones and kept the baddies!

Happy Birthday to you Mr Tesla..  The world has not come far!  The world is still trying to hide your stuff because they know that energy would be seen differently by so many.  If you were alive today you would be 156 years old today!

Nichola  Tesla 1856  - 1943 .. A man who was not in it for the money.  He wanted to give the world FREE ENERGY. " If we are to implement free energy in the tradition of Nicola Tesla, then we need to replicate not only his science but his humanity as well"  Sterling David Allan (Pure energy systems.com)

Image by Mezza -  Heaven on a stick Gleniffer NSW

One of the hardest decisions you'll ever face in life is choosing whether to walk away or try harder!

Sitting by the fire at the beach and watching the waves and hearing the rhythmic crashing that occurs with each wave as it rolls in to shore towards me, reminding me that this is life and it is very real.

My little life is so harsh and I have no idea what to do in my own strength in this situation.  I take the guidance of others in this matter very seriously.  I am unable to make great emotional decisions because I lack the emotional where with all this takes to understand family.  I just don't know how.

 Image by Mezza- Fire at the Beach July 2012 Full Moon

Cranky Old Man

A poetic take on the golden rule of life and doing unto others.

Lots of Old men come here to fish

Cranky Old Man

What do you see nurses?....
        What do you see?
What are you thinking . . . . . .
         when you're looking at me?
A cranky old man . . . . . .
          not very wise,
Uncertain of habit . . . . . .
          with faraway eyes?
Who dribbles his food . . . . . .
          and makes no reply.
When you say in a loud voice . . . . . .'
           I do wish you'd try!'
Who seems not to notice . . . . . .
           the things that you do.
And forever is losing . . . . . .
           A sock or shoe?
Who, resisting or not . . . . . .
           lets you do as you will,
With bathing and feeding . . . . . .
           The long day to fill?
Is that what you're thinking? . . . . . .
            Is that what you see?
Then open your eyes, nurse . . . . .
            you're not looking at me.
I'll tell you who I am . . . . . .
            As I sit here so still,
As I do at your bidding . . . . . .
            as I eat at your will.
I'm a small child of Ten . . . . . .
             with a father and mother,
Brothers and sisters . . . . . .
             who love one another
A young boy of Sixteen . . . . . .
               with wings on his feet
Dreaming that soon now . . . . . .
               a lover he'll meet.
A groom soon at Twenty . . . . . .
                my heart gives a leap.
Remembering, the vows . . . . . .
                that I promised to keep.
At Twenty-Five, now . . . . .
               .I have young of my own.
Who need me to guide . . . . . .
                And a secure happy home.
A man of Thirty . . . . . .
                My young now grown fast,
Bound to each other . . . . . .
                With ties that should last.
At Forty, my young sons . . . . . .
                 have grown and are gone,
But my woman is beside me . . . . . .
                 to see I don't mourn.
At Fifty, once more . . . . . .
                 Babies play 'round my knee,
Again, we know children . . . . . .
                  My loved one and me.
Dark days are upon me . . . . . .
                  My wife is now dead.
I look at the future . . . . . .
                  I shudder with dread.
For my young are all rearing . . . . . .
                   young of their own.
And I think of the years . . . . . .
                  And the love that I've known.
I'm now an old man . . . . . .
                  and nature is cruel.
It's jest to make old age . . . . . .
                   look like a fool.
The body, it crumbles . . . . . .
                   grace and vigor, depart.
There is now a stone . . . . .
                   where I once had a heart.
But inside this old carcass . . . . . .
                  A young man still dwells,
And now and again . . . . . .
                 my battered heart swells
I remember the joys . . . . .
                 .I remember the pain.
And I'm loving and living . . . . . .
                  life over again.
I think of the years, all too few . . . . . .
                  gone too fast.
And accept the stark fact . . . . . .
                  that nothing can last.
So open your eyes, people . . . . . .
                  open and see.
Not a cranky old man . . . . . .
                   Look closer . . . . . .see . . . . . .ME!!

This poem has been traveling around the internet and is reported to have come from an unknown geriatric patient in so many towns now as reported below.   I think the world is in a poor state if there are that many sad old men in that many towns.  It is a poem to teach humility!  Humble yourself today. Take notice of people when they are alive and well and able to talk and communicate. 

Don't wait until they are dead.  When a person is dead there is no more communication on this level.  So many I have known have taken their own lives.  I cry for the ones who do this, it is a silent and final plea to be really heard.
All of the beautiful spiritual people around and still they were not a solution to the madness that overcomes those who are damaged and sad.  Posh ladies colleges, boarding schools in the country,  Private expensive elite education.  So  growing the hair into dreads isn't going to eliminate from where you emanate.  Its the black heart of society that you will never become fair no matter how many feathers in your hair or the length of  faerie dresses you wear.

[When an old man died in the geriatric ward of a nursing home in an Australian country town, it was believed that he had nothing left of any value. Later, when the nurses were going through his meager possessions, they found this poem.

Its quality and content so impressed the staff that copies were made and distributed to every nurse in the hospital. One nurse took her copy to Melbourne. The old man's sole bequest to posterity has since appeared in the Christmas editions of magazines around the country and appearing in mags for Mental Health.

A slide presentation has also been made based on his simple, but eloquent, poem. And this old man, with nothing left to give to the world, is now the author of this 'anonymous' poem winging across the Internet.]

Illustration of a nurse from the Australian Bush Nursing Scheme working in a remote area.
(Photo credit: Wikipedia

Image by Mezza -Dawn time of the morning half way out on the footbridge at Urunga 2012

The two most powerful warriors are patience and time.

Leo Tolstoy

A warrior of Light

“The bravest are surely those who have the clearest vision of what lies before them, glory and danger alike, and yet notwithstanding, go out to meet it!”
 ~ Thucydides ~

Those two warriors are friends of mine,
one of them patience
and one of them time
Time is on my side
and patience is a virtue
very true
Its what keeps me from falling through
Holds me up like a post without an office
Can I get used to this?  I feel such a novice
Patients is a good friend as I sit here and wait for this nightmare to end!
M Peters

Image by Mezza - Al at Valla

Just look at us. Everything is backwards, everything is upside down."

“Doctors destroy health, Lawyers destroy justice, Psychiatrists destroy minds, Scientists destroy truth, Major Media destroys information, Religion's destroy spirituality and Governments destroy freedom.” 

 ~ Michael Ellner ~

The Spar...isn't a Spa

I just look  around me.  This is all backwards too.  A strange kind of feeling pervading in my soul.  One of those " can't put your fingers on it feelings"   but it's there no less, and it is very real.  I know these vibrations which  I am feeling again.  

For so long this has happened and it has played havoc with my head.  It was like I was hearing a tape player inside my head of the  other persons head.  I could hear their thoughts is what it was like.

I find this very daunting at times as it can lead me to being very self righteous in my own defense.  After all, it is what you do when you defend your self against what you hear.  One thing that is forgotten by me in this equation is that others cannot hear this same stuff.  I am defending air.  I look silly.  Others love to tell me I am paranoid, trouble is they say it with a fearful look on their face like they know they are making it up saying this, the compulsion to cover this is very great in people.

I have this occurrence happen often, and this is the reason I say some of the things I do.   This can make others feel uncomfortable if I have just verbalized their intimate thoughts I suppose.

This video has been a favorite now for a couple of weeks.  Its Daily Meds. and like the video say's , "Its a time warp here waiting for stormy weather,
                    ............... so c'mon lets get our shit together."

Image by Mezza - Brick Wall at the Spar that isn't a SPA

“Reflection is a flower of the mind, giving out wholesome fragrance; but revelry is the same flower, when rank and running to seed.”

Desiderius Erasmus..

River Reflections

This is one of the best places to sit at dawn in the sun!  There is a lovely place and a nice bench, a gorgeous tree to sit under.  The view is more than breathtaking and the river is energetic.  There is a well maintained  path leading down so you don't get your shoes all wet getting there.  It is one of my special spots.  A great place to take in the world when you are being kind to yourself.  The energy there is healing.  The sounds are beautiful and melodic and rhythmic. 

Image by Mezza - The Kalang River at Urunga

“Socrates had a student named Plato, Plato had a student named Aristotle, and Aristotle had a student named Alexander the Great.”

Tom Morris

The footbridge is constantly changing

I duly think it is time I visited the Akashic halls.  I am overwhelmed at the amount of knowledge I want to understand and if my maths is still in tact, there does not seem to be the amount of years between here and there. 

I already sleep the least I can so there are as many hours possible to engage in learning practices of the most ancient kind.  The investigation once again into the Kabalah and to the body of Hermetic wisdom.  I am extremely excited by this because for as long as I can remember I have been quoting hermetic wisdom and actually participating in meditations all of my own intuitive leading.  To realise that I already had a huge knowledge basis that was vital to an easier understanding was a beautiful moment. I felt then that it was not a waste of time. 

I had studied Anatomy and Physiology and I had studied everything to do with naturopathica.  I attended the Maureen Wells School of Naturopathy.  I enjoyed the herbal and the acupuncture and I loved everything I learned about the cell salts.  Bach flower remedies are amazing and I was I suppose as per the norm for me, I did become a tad overwhelmed.  I had always desired not to be a practising Naturopath but to attain the knowledge of one who intended to practice for a living.  I wanted the knowledge for myself, my family and further for benefit of my friends.

Now I want to tie up the loose ends of this.  I want all of this to fall into place. and because I am visualising this as I type this, then it will happen.  It already has happened and this is my belief system to attain what is required here.

I need a miraculous injection of knowledge of such things as the great writers of antiquity.  I want to understand why the Roman times had to be.  I feel like my sisterhood and brotherhood has been robbed and for this reason I want to understand its place.  Language is also on  my menu of learning.  I tasted Latin as a child and I never forgot what I had learned and I have built on this knowledge since but now I just want to understand so much more.  I want to speak Latin and Spanish.  I love the language and it is similar to Italian and French.  I have learned a lot since I started researching early forms of numerals etc when this blog began.

Below is an explaination of both the Akasha and Esoteric Cosmology, the later interesting me greatly and is what I have been learning about lately.

The Akashic Record

The akashic records are described as containing all knowledge of human experience and the history of the cosmos. They are metaphorically described as a library; other analogies commonly found in discourse on the subject include a "universal supercomputer" and the "Mind of God". People who describe the records assert that they are constantly updated automatically and that they can be accessed through astral projection or when someone is placed under deep hypnosis.

 Esoteric cosmology 

Esoteric cosmology is cosmology that is an intrinsic part of an esoteric or occult system of thought. Esoteric cosmology maps out the universe with planes of existence and consciousness according to a specific world view usually from a doctrine.

Esoteric cosmology almost always deals with at least some of the following themes: emanation, involution, spiritual evolution, epigenesis, planes of existence or higher worlds (and their emanation and the connections between them), hierarchies of spiritual beings, cosmic cycles (e.g., cosmic year, Yuga), yogic or spiritual disciplines and techniques of self-transformation, and references to mystical and altered states of consciousness.

Such cosmologies cover many of the same concerns also addressed by religious cosmology and philosophical cosmology, such as the origin, purpose, and destiny of the universe and of consciousness and the nature of existence. For this reason it is sometimes difficult to distinguish where religion or philosophy end and esotericism or occultism begins. However, esoteric cosmology is distinguished from religion in its more sophisticated construction and reliance on intellectual understanding rather than faith, and from philosophy in its emphasis on techniques of psycho-spiritual transformation.

 
Image by Mezza - Urunga footbridge at dawn