Lets raise children who won't have to recover from their childhoods.

~ Pam Leo ~

A sign at the Bring the Children home Action in Refern Sydney.

 Images @ Eminpee Fotography

“Happiness is when what you think, what you say, and what you do are in harmony.”

 ~ Mahatma Gandhi  ~

My Chrysanthemums in bud just ready to flower.

“Happiness is when what you think, what you say, and what you do are in harmony.” and when this happens it is as though even the flower buds are smiling because of this. 

Everything,  and I mean everything seems to run well. 

 

Yesterday I walked with an old friend from Bellingen,  Rosalie!  We went out to the beach for a long walk and a seat out there for a short while.  It was so nice to catch up with people who knew me before the town did its little number on me via a few incredible people who think they are in fact credible.  Karma awaits.

My opinion of myself has dropped because of this  meddlesome mischievousness.  This is to a point that I sometimes question why I breath.  How does the universe let such a bad person breathe?   It could be that I am wrong about myself and it could be that I should get past this and pay no heed to the rubbish. 

I know what I have done and I have a clear conscience regarding all of this.  I did good and that is all that matters to me and it should be all that matters to others as well.  But typically it isn't.  This year it is 20 years.  I give myself some pats on the back even if no one else does!  I am not going to get the kudos others would for such a feat.  I have no one who bothers to recognize this miracle as it passes by in 2013.
I put a video of a song that makes me feel really uplifted ... Not giving in!!

Images @ Melonpopzdropz Flickr

"We are shaped by what we do, not by who we are."

 ~ A.D. Williams ~

 

I am a government kid still and that keeps dogging me all of the time.  I get discriminated against  because of this.  I have felt this many times.  When in a group and talking about childhood experiences I want to tell others it was freaking hell.  Now I want help!  I could not ask for help then,  I let it all happen to me.

These days I shape it a little better.  Proof of this is the kinds of things I do.  The things I love.  The study that I do each day to stay ahead of myself.  Believe me is that hard too.  My mind has so much it wants to know.  Is it my mind or is my heart leading me on a the journey.  Each time I learn a new skill I feel as though  I just climbed a mountain.  That is not a bad feeling for anyone to experience.
 
Images @ Melonpopzdropz Flickr

"Each hurdle we go through in life makes the next one easier."

~ A.D. Williams ~

When I make something as in created a work of art or a masterpiece as I call it, there is always room for improvement at every turn.  By the time I have completed three of the same thing I then have it all down pat. 

I have changed the process accordingly.   Each time I carry out the task,  I always find a more efficient method to carry out what I need to do.  This never ceases to give me a buzz.  I am hard on myself though.  I always want to do the best I can possibly do. 

To do this, I usually I go back to the first one and re-do it or pull the stitches undone and have another go at what ever it is.    I am more proficient with what I am doing then and it is easy. 

I get busy doing so many different things so starting again can be a little hectic.  I am kept very busy while others are perfectly bored with so much time on their hands.  I worked out that I am actually really happy while creating and playing as I call it. 

I call it play because as a child I did not play very much and I never played with anyone else.  Edith forbid me to have anything to do with anyone else.  This made it easier for her to abuse me.  It made it easy for her to keep it a secret all of  what she did to me.  No one ever knew because I was not allowed to talk to others. 

School was an issue to Edith's tyranical reach though,  it posed a threat to her control.  When I was 12 she sent me to a Children's Home to live and I became a Ward of the State of Queensland.  I was no longer her responsibility.  I was unwanted.  I was abandoned for the second time in my 12 short years.  Oh Gosh I remember how much that hurt too.  I had become a government kid.

For as long as I can remember it was a trick of mine to stay busy to make the time pass faster.  I guess it was a skill that has saved my life.  In the home I busied the other girls when certain nurses were on duty to make chocolate fudge in the old kitchen down stairs in the old part of the children's home.  Oh what fun that was too.

I love doing this kind of thing still today.   I have a great ability  to keep busy.  I find that I can make any time pass happily and quickly  as long as I am busy with something!   "Something", could be anything because my mind has the capacity for many interesting things to take place at once.   Keeping my mind occupied is the trick to it all.

The quicksilver mind of the person born with the sun in Gemini and Mercury in my house of communication must communicate.   I have found a myriad of ways in which to do this.   I was forced to become resourceful to save the very essence of who I am or I  fear I may have simply died of brokenness.  I photograph and I paint, I garden and I sew, I crochet and I write, I cook and I make things from junk, I collect seeds as a hobby and I love to walk,  I dance and love music, I play guitar like a novice but I love it.  I am a lover of poetry, music and drama.  I am a lover of wood.  I  dislike Injustice in the world of any capacity.

Being brought up by Edith at this time in my life was an injustice to the world as I had a great capacity to learn and to create change and I have been held back held down and shut up and shut down and each time I rise like the phoenix from the ashes to become great once more.  Why get down about where things are at now in my life.  Nature knows whats going on and so I must relax and let God be God and let go and just drift on the whimsical air of creativity and to where ever this takes me.

Peace, Love and Light always to all of my rainbow tribe brothers and sisters I am walking this journey with.

Images @ Melonpopzdropz Flickr

Where there is love there is also hate, the race to the finish line begins with your perception.

Master MacGregor .

Some humans actually think these thoughts and voice them out to others.  They do this because they actually  believe this.

‎"To live in Australia is pretty good karma if you ask me, no starvation, no wars or torture, no dictators" only Gillard!!

If this is how the younger people of Australia are tolerated thinking then this is why the place is in a huge mess.  This isn't true not by a long shot.   To even think this is the grossest representation of what the truth actually is.  There has been and still is genocide and ecocide and human experimentation of substances and treatment and its effects on humans.  This is alive and well in Australia.

So obviously it leaves me to  wonder how people can actually think this sort of stuff and walk around and live and breathe and think it is alright to be this way with it all.

I suppose the solution for them is that they just just have another coca-cola or another Macca's burger and gulp down Fluoride. Become even more docile, numb and unable to process thoughts on their own to a place of resolution.

Perhaps the people of Inala need to know they were most likely experimented on in the 1960's.  It was a purpose built on tribal ground.  It was the time the government were not very ethical at all.  Lots of really bad things happening to people.

Image by Mezza -Ava - Macropod  ... Bellingen 2012

Sometimes we have to say good bye to the ones who mean the most to us, Because usually they are the ones who are slowly killing us inside!

This is harder than anything I have ever done to date in my life.  I have had to do this alone and with much judgement and zero understanding.  For this I thank no one.

Many memories just there in front of me to remind me of these things.  The Vase that was on the dutchess the entire time that my children were growing still looks at me and sparkles the same.  It sparkles the same and I don't and that can make me cry sometimes.  I don't mind it sparkling its only the  memories I don't like.

Image by Mezza - The Chrystal in the sunshine

We live in interesting times The Chinese curse has come to pass.

Written by Atalanta Lloyd-Haines ( https://www.facebook.com/atalanta73)

We live in interesting times
The Chinese curse has come to pass.
The state has a stranglehold,
are we a democracy?
Where our choice is between the far right and the extreme far right
Where anyone dissenting is labelled a lefty extremist?
And in jeopardy of being jailed as a terrorist.
It's a web of deception pointing us in a particular direction.
Just watch the media -
hooking us on big pharma (it all starts with Panadol)
and out-of-control consumption,
Give me Anarchism
Voluntary co-operation
freedom from the oppression
of Government and big business.
A shift in perspective from
what we have
A Welfare state
with the subsequent restriction of rights
in exchange for SOCIAL SECURITY
What is social security really?

Am I so radical really?
Wanting to be free of capitalism, fascism and all the other isms...
Govern/mentality, all of them
Pushing “regimes of truth” that are
most bloody.
Who decided that the people require guidance, and for what purpose?
War? Workers for industry?
So some may be wealthy beyond measure
Whilst the rest starve
So many laws
So little purpose
Except to control
A most bloody and avaricious regime of truth
consumes the planet
All the isms at play now bow
to the God of them – Capitalism
They make me sick
these excuses for government -
doing the bidding of big business
Who are the true rulers and dictators
Progress, industry, consumption and greed
Just look at the gas field's steadily making
land uninhabitable
State and Federal government
allowing the interests of
profit and petrol and progress
over the health of the land
and therefore all living things...
Goodbye drinking water
Good governance be damned
Its all good on paper
A stripped back public service
privatization of public assets
Yet, without the nicety of
steering rather than rowing

Atalanta is studying at the moment and as a response to some of her study she wrote this.  I loved the writing because it is real and from the heart.  I am so pleased she is studying to become an effective teacher in the community!
So many protest sites all over Australia at the moment.  There is protesting against Fracking , Roxby Downs and the Gas Hub in the Kimberly  and up near Broome they are building a 2klm long jetty to ship the GAS out.  The place in the Kimberly is the home of the Killer Whale. This is the totem too.  The whale will rise up in the ocean and slap its tail down so hard none of us will survive. 
The Sleeping Lizards belly is being gouged out.  Inside of his body are a rainbow of  poisons to kill the miners.  Please go home and leave the lizard alone.  Honestly it will not be worth it to any of us.

Image by Mezza - The beautiful ground of  the Centre of Australia in Sth Australia

"Religion is the sigh of the oppressed creature, the heart of a heartless world, just as it is the spirit of a spiritless situation. It is the opium of the people." Karl Marx

Indoctrination (brainwashing)

 

 'Religious distress is at the same time the expression of real distress and the protest against real distress. Religion is the sigh of the oppressed creature, the heart of a heartless world, just as it is the spirit of a spiritless situation. It is the opium of the people. The abolition of religion as the illusory happiness of the people is required for their real happiness. The demand to give up the illusion about its condition is the demand to give up a condition which needs illusions' - Karl Marx

All the roads lead back to Rome.  In the case of Christianity this is true.  They all lead back to the Vatican and the evil greedy ways of the Papal system. 

This is dead in the water now..  It is now seen as the biggest hoodwink in the modern age.  The dishonesty of this in its entirety is what Karl Marx said when he said that Religion =  It is the opium of the people.

Call out  the true evil.  Bring this out into the light.   Don't sit like a mouse hiding evil and evil people and their evil ways of manipulation of the masses.  Just them fooling you with this is manipulation of a single person.   So it is still a serious manipulation as you are human and important.  They make a habit out of telling you that you are evil and making you feel guilty and that if you accept this indoctrination then you are somehow free of anything bad you have ever committed.

Some of the most evil blood thirsty people in this world align themselves with Christianity and the doctrines of apathy it carries with it.  Unless you are prepared to bring the darkness of this world into the light you are continuing that same catholic evil. 

 The corporation of religion has stolen our sovereignty and our divinity and our power for over two thousand years.  Rolling this out wholesale against the entirety of humanity was a well thought of scam by the Romans.  They killed many in the name of God.  They are evil.

The church has a few great sayings that are entirely humorous.  Saying we should not judge others and that we should not think for ourselves and calling this  "judgementality" is the true evil.  It is the epitome of evil because then we are not using our proper discernment.   If we don't discern  then we are not human.   It is that simple! 

We are being used and abused and we sit there and take it  and don't take any notice how much this is actually hurting the world we live in. Proof we have lost our creation connection.  If we were still connected this would not sit right with you.   It is itself evil.

They gave you a  BIBLE .. a well written allegorical.  An allegorical with half of the story missing.  The emperor at the time deeming which books to use to be able to hood wink the masses.  Any mention of the original power in its original form has been doctored and a story manufactured instead.  Where are the Solgeggio sounds of creation  and true miracles which we need to listen to.  The church took them away from you.    they the church enmasse don't adhere to such rubbish.  This is what was said to me by the church.  I propose this to be evil.

On a daily basis to live and exist in this dangerous beautiful world of cliffs, deep holes, rips, robbers and thieves and sexually depraved people and survive then I have to judge several hundred or more times a day to keep myself safe in this quite dangerous world.  I discern for example, that it may be dangerous to walk out in an open clearing during a fierce electrical storm.   I  therefore make a judgement that my body is safer where it is.  I get an inkling something is going to happen, this is not evil this is my instinct, it is the very thing creation created.

You tell me how or why this skill ,can this be judged as evil?  It is a natural response put their by creation itself to take care of yourself by you.  

To take care of oneself entirely  entails not  being used and abused by power mongers masquerading as religion lulling everyone they indoctrinate into a false sense of reality.  They do this smiling at you  and taking 10% of your hard earned on top of the evil catholic government already taking their share for doing virtually nothing and they say this is love.

So if you read this and you call yourself Christian and you tithe, where is your money going?  To pay some one to tell you that you are evil simply because you have a mind of your own, to drag you away from your true potential that you have been born to use, yes this is evil.  To allow someone to continue to do this to another is just plain stupidity, especially if this is continued once the light has been turned on and the people are in receipt of the truth. 

As always so it will continue and the true knowledge will eventually float to the top.  As above so below.   It is floating so much on the top now in plain sight.  This has these people running and ducking and weaving  like headless chickens in this direction and then that and all completely lost.   This was  purposeful from the beginning.  The whole thing of spirituality has been turned into a business both inside and outside the church.

There are starving children everywhere in this world both in our first world countries and the third world countries.   Manipulating  their culture out of existence is like taking away an animals habitat and food source.   I deem this the true evil.  Feed these poor people from the rich annals of your Vatican. If we don't demand this of the evil catholic religions then we are not good people either.   We have turned a blind eye to evil.  

Give the worlds starving  real help.  Stop dressing it up in yesterdays worn out doctrines. 

So what is the church bank account for then? To pay the priest and to buy plane tickets to tropical countries in the name of leading people to a false Christ.  Why?   What for?  To spread more evil indoctrination and leave more kids in the same street as the church starving and hungry.  I simply do not understand this.  It is far from being humble.  It is sick and it is a dead principal.

These so called christian leaders  are passed over by the law for their abominations and the flaunting they do, why?   Was it because of a secret handshake or a scratch of the nose?  The legal system is rife with this stuff and its insidious in its nature.   

Get proactive and do  something about this in your local church today or shut the hell up. While you are shutting up also  take your doctrine of lies and leave.  Leave our beautiful planet you have killed in the name of your selfish greedy  cruel religion. 

Religion today will still tell you that if you hug a tree you are evil..  What sort of nonsense is that when they care even less about human beings.  The true evil is taking someones culture away from them and replacing it with made up lies.  That is genocide.

Image by Mezza - A distant reflection of the sun in a window like a distant link to true archetypal wisdom. .

I don't know the key to success, but the key to failure is trying to please everybody. ..Bill Cosby

 If you're the one who is always last to leave the job or the work place, you could be a people pleaser.  If your children treat you poorly and carry on about how they are entitled to this and that and you allow this to happen, this is clear people pleasing.  Did you walk away from your marriage and still don't understand what the heck happened, yes you may well be one of these "People Pleaser's".

The people pleaser's of the world struggle with a life of trying to get approval from others. Sometimes this group of people attempt to meet this need by doing  and going over the top.  They cannot seem to say no to people!  Even when they should say no they find themselves accepting another engagement or job or project or volunteering on another committee.  These personality types often suffer emotionally with co-dependent issues concurrently.  The People Pleaser personality has a real fear of failure.  They will kill themselves trying to hide the fact that they have any imperfections.
Where does this start?  My guess is this sort of behaviour is instigated in childhood.

 

 I usually find the issue was a form of abuse in the past history of the "Pleaser".  This person learned as a child to do what had to be done to keep the peace.  Enabling the abuser to carry on abusing.  This is then carried on into the adult life of the person because it is so firmly entrenched into the persons being.  They become one and the same and even the "Pleaser" sees their behaviours as likeable.  They have a strong tendency to get mixed up about being loved and about being needed, often making poor choices because of this.

Build strong relationships with your children, don't be afraid to confront the ones who have hurt you or treated you poorly.  This is one of the hardest ones. Confrontation.  People pleaser's hate confrontation. Break the cycle if this has been what has happened in your family.

Images by Mezza - The Beach at Hungry Head and Dawn in Urunga