"Each hurdle we go through in life makes the next one easier."

~ A.D. Williams ~

When I make something as in created a work of art or a masterpiece as I call it, there is always room for improvement at every turn.  By the time I have completed three of the same thing I then have it all down pat. 

I have changed the process accordingly.   Each time I carry out the task,  I always find a more efficient method to carry out what I need to do.  This never ceases to give me a buzz.  I am hard on myself though.  I always want to do the best I can possibly do. 

To do this, I usually I go back to the first one and re-do it or pull the stitches undone and have another go at what ever it is.    I am more proficient with what I am doing then and it is easy. 

I get busy doing so many different things so starting again can be a little hectic.  I am kept very busy while others are perfectly bored with so much time on their hands.  I worked out that I am actually really happy while creating and playing as I call it. 

I call it play because as a child I did not play very much and I never played with anyone else.  Edith forbid me to have anything to do with anyone else.  This made it easier for her to abuse me.  It made it easy for her to keep it a secret all of  what she did to me.  No one ever knew because I was not allowed to talk to others. 

School was an issue to Edith's tyranical reach though,  it posed a threat to her control.  When I was 12 she sent me to a Children's Home to live and I became a Ward of the State of Queensland.  I was no longer her responsibility.  I was unwanted.  I was abandoned for the second time in my 12 short years.  Oh Gosh I remember how much that hurt too.  I had become a government kid.

For as long as I can remember it was a trick of mine to stay busy to make the time pass faster.  I guess it was a skill that has saved my life.  In the home I busied the other girls when certain nurses were on duty to make chocolate fudge in the old kitchen down stairs in the old part of the children's home.  Oh what fun that was too.

I love doing this kind of thing still today.   I have a great ability  to keep busy.  I find that I can make any time pass happily and quickly  as long as I am busy with something!   "Something", could be anything because my mind has the capacity for many interesting things to take place at once.   Keeping my mind occupied is the trick to it all.

The quicksilver mind of the person born with the sun in Gemini and Mercury in my house of communication must communicate.   I have found a myriad of ways in which to do this.   I was forced to become resourceful to save the very essence of who I am or I  fear I may have simply died of brokenness.  I photograph and I paint, I garden and I sew, I crochet and I write, I cook and I make things from junk, I collect seeds as a hobby and I love to walk,  I dance and love music, I play guitar like a novice but I love it.  I am a lover of poetry, music and drama.  I am a lover of wood.  I  dislike Injustice in the world of any capacity.

Being brought up by Edith at this time in my life was an injustice to the world as I had a great capacity to learn and to create change and I have been held back held down and shut up and shut down and each time I rise like the phoenix from the ashes to become great once more.  Why get down about where things are at now in my life.  Nature knows whats going on and so I must relax and let God be God and let go and just drift on the whimsical air of creativity and to where ever this takes me.

Peace, Love and Light always to all of my rainbow tribe brothers and sisters I am walking this journey with.

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