"How could I instill such hope but be left with none of my own?"

~ Dallas Green ~

Not much hope left for this relic of shared history.

I have experienced a great shock in the last week.  I lost another old friend in very tragic circumstances.  I am left in a state of Memento Mori, pondering death and his doors.  

I live with a continuing tragedy and loss of hope on the daily.  I live with the loss of my kids love because of my being human.  It's only now I realize, they were probably looking for any excuse to exit stage left away from me anyway.   

Its a strange feeling that leaves inside of me.  For me this clarifies that these elder two (2/3) children I birthed were souls itching to be born and at the time they were.   Jesse and Tilly didn't care who they came through because they chose me as their Mother.  This is their karma and not mine, I am already living my own.

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