Girl, you gotta love your man, take him by the hand.

Jim Morrison ( The Doors)

Trees feel when another tree suffers a severe mishap.

 We are in a world that can be beautiful and it can be dangerous.   We, as humans, are all trying to stay above the fray, above the destruction of ourselves.  We are all out there doing the best we can to survive this onslaught that life serves up to us as people of the 21st Century.

I know longer feel that I have to have a bigger and better  latest feat to impress my son.  I remember that I was always trying to impress him with what I could do or what I knew about something.

This is a classic case of  just wanting to be accepted by someone.  It is clear now that even before there was any trouble, I would often ask him - "Do you Love Me"?

When he would show his disapproval of my hair or my cloths or my friends or my desires, it hurt a great deal.  I felt he just disapproved of me and my word in general.  Jesse was a very fussy boy.  He liked things clean and neat and tidy and I tried to do that and super-size it.  I was alright with this because I liked things this way also.  I was inadvertantly as his mumma, trying to take him by the hand and educate him and prepare him for his life.

Both Jesse and myself have Mercury as our ruling planet.  The planet of communication.  Gemini and Virgo.  But do they get along?  It can be hardcore at times when anything is in the hands of a Virgo.   They can expect a great deal from those around them.  These perfect Virgoan's amongst us set the bar very high for others,  usually not so high for themselves though.

I don't think that Jesse ever really accepted me as a viable human being.  He was so used to seeing his father walk all over me in decisions that were made.  He was used to seeing his father hopelessly drunk and angry.  He was used to seeing the abuse of a female as the norm.   I know this will effect the perception he has of me and his perception of all mothers.

 "In his workshop, a disheartened carpenter stands idle whereas his employee cheerfully pulls the workbench cluttered with badly maintained tools."

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