The dawns are getting cooler
|The cloud opens and light reaches down.|
I got up early today and mostly read . I thought to myself; I will write of the week that was. I got caught reading instead. I found some blogs about stars and constellations. I read about the constellation Orion and how the belt is the saucepan to us here in Australia. I didn't know this was the same thing until this mornings reading. I am interested because the sky has been exciting over the last month of March. Venus and various other heavenly beings lining up in the sky. It has been very beautiful.
I have negated to go and take photographs early all of this week except for Monday. I have been so badly bitten that I felt I needed to recover from the bites that I still have before getting more. I dislike these little beasts. They drive me fully crazy with the itch that never seems to subside. It is itchy till it hurts, then it just hurts. Midgee's and mozzies are the pits.
In order to escape this I want to find a business partner who wants to buy something and do the same as me. Doing this with someone else is more what I want to do. I need to buy some land desperately and grow vegetables and have animals to care for. I am sick of seeing our dog tied to a lead 24/7 because of where we live. I am getting sick of sitting in the proverbial dark. I want someone to reach down and pull me out of this darkness. I want to be able to really live again. I have felt a sense of marking time in the last couple of years. Like I am waiting for something but I don't know what this something is.
I wish I understood some of this stuff. I wish I understood why I feel the way I do. I want to know why I cannot just be happy. I have to do something about this. It is a nice house but do we need to live in such luxury? It is a nice yard for the dog I will grant this fact. Phoenix must love her view of the Pacific Ocean but for me, I can't dig it up so it isn't an ideal yard for me. I need to see things growing and fruiting and feeding us. I need to not see so much useless grass and more useful food plants. I cringe at buying so much petrol to cut this useless grass.
So it is radio day today also and so I must get up and finish that off as well. Montana and I have a huge show today jam packed with new Australian Music. We love Australian music. We love to bring it to you guys. Today Montana will be there for the entire show. She said to me on Monday she would, however it is Friday and a lot changes through the normal school week.
|Montana and Me|
I wish that Montana could plan her life a little more effectively because being let down at the last minute is not an ideal way to carry out a partnership. She is still 15 years old and so you cannot put an old head on young shoulders. She will work out whether this is effective in her life or not. Best if she does this herself to really learn the life's lesson enclosed there within. Funnily enough no one says much to her. They say it to me. I wish they would not. Don't they think I know this stuff? How can I physically make her like being there anymore than she already does? It is impossible short of paying her. I am not paying her so don't panic.