Today's post is for a great woman, a woman above all other women. A woman who was so strong..
Born 17.02.1931 ( I think) Ellen Katherine Baguley ( Peters, Frazer).. What a gorgeous strong woman you were. You got more than your fair share to deal with, I know. I know how much you must have hurt now. My heart is with your heart and I love you.
Today mum, all the guitars are for you my love. I love you! If I had known that you wanted a guitar so much I would have given you mine. I am smiling though, because now, when I play any guitar, I will play for you so you can play with me too.
I miss you mum, so much! If only we could see the full extent of the choices we all make in life. You didn't and I have followed in your footsteps. I too have made some fairly poor choices. I acted out of emotion or the lack of it. Now as I sit with you and cuddle you in my mind, I know how you must have felt. Stuck and unable to change the wrongs that had occurred, feeling like the machine was bigger than you. Yes, I know how this feels. I feel it, you felt it and Mary my grandmother felt it.
I sit in awe here with you at the moment and I think its time we changed this. What you reckon? Its time that this stuff stopped following the woman of this family.. No more, and so together we will pray. In the name of the God we both know is true and real ... I ask Lord, that this curse be broken in the name of Jesus Christ . . .Amen.. ... ... There.. that is so much better now!
I have been stuck in the past mum, I was waiting for you! It sounds silly hey, I know. But in a weird way this is what has happened, our lives were parted so soon and yet we bonded like no two other woman on this earth in that four short months that we had together! I forgive you for making a bad choice, I don't think you were bad. I think I have been in your shoes myself. I think I understand.
Its not pretty is it? Not when it comes on top of a life time of heart ache shame guilt and all that other stuff all of us woman have felt...... Well, making decisions and choices are not easy to do! Always feeling damned if you did and damned if you didn't. The eternal quandary we all as woman from this family have faced.
But for today and for the future this is broken now and we will seize the day ... Carpe diem.. and we will now go on now a bit better shape in which ever dimension we are in.
We will be as strong woman should be. We who have endured and who have been to the edge of the fires of hell, and survived it. When the heat got too hot maybe we should have got out of the kitchen, just saying...
Mummy I love you so so much and I love your beautiful voice. I can hear you in my mind.
I lay in bed and picture your heavenly body to be as gossamer as the stardust and your radiant beauty is shining down for all to see
You have an awesome day Mum ... what ever you do in heaven, hanging out with angels must be fun. I have had a few here lately, I suspect that you sent them, every one. You and the boss. He understands all that has gone before us and what will be ahead of us.
Images - Ellen Katherine Baguley ( Peters; Fraser)
This song is for you mum, I was inspired by my friend Mandie. It is her wedding song and today is their anniversary, when I listened to the song the second time, I knew you would like this one too. I love you mum. xoxooxox
Ellen Katherine Baguley
formerly of Warwick Queensland, resident of heaven now, may God's hand continue to hold you. Today I am having a day with my mum................. in spirit!
You passed from this world now some 13 years ago. Today I am dedicating my day to you, and what ever I do today will be done with you in my mind. I will play my songs to you today. Our radio show today at 4pm will be for you Mum.
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| Ellen Katherine Baguley |
Today mum, all the guitars are for you my love. I love you! If I had known that you wanted a guitar so much I would have given you mine. I am smiling though, because now, when I play any guitar, I will play for you so you can play with me too.
I miss you mum, so much! If only we could see the full extent of the choices we all make in life. You didn't and I have followed in your footsteps. I too have made some fairly poor choices. I acted out of emotion or the lack of it. Now as I sit with you and cuddle you in my mind, I know how you must have felt. Stuck and unable to change the wrongs that had occurred, feeling like the machine was bigger than you. Yes, I know how this feels. I feel it, you felt it and Mary my grandmother felt it.
I sit in awe here with you at the moment and I think its time we changed this. What you reckon? Its time that this stuff stopped following the woman of this family.. No more, and so together we will pray. In the name of the God we both know is true and real ... I ask Lord, that this curse be broken in the name of Jesus Christ . . .Amen.. ... ... There.. that is so much better now!
I have been stuck in the past mum, I was waiting for you! It sounds silly hey, I know. But in a weird way this is what has happened, our lives were parted so soon and yet we bonded like no two other woman on this earth in that four short months that we had together! I forgive you for making a bad choice, I don't think you were bad. I think I have been in your shoes myself. I think I understand.
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| Ellen Baguley aged 15 years |
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| Ellen on the farm at Pratten 1977 |
But for today and for the future this is broken now and we will seize the day ... Carpe diem.. and we will now go on now a bit better shape in which ever dimension we are in.
We will be as strong woman should be. We who have endured and who have been to the edge of the fires of hell, and survived it. When the heat got too hot maybe we should have got out of the kitchen, just saying...
Mummy I love you so so much and I love your beautiful voice. I can hear you in my mind.
I lay in bed and picture your heavenly body to be as gossamer as the stardust and your radiant beauty is shining down for all to see
You have an awesome day Mum ... what ever you do in heaven, hanging out with angels must be fun. I have had a few here lately, I suspect that you sent them, every one. You and the boss. He understands all that has gone before us and what will be ahead of us.
Images - Ellen Katherine Baguley ( Peters; Fraser)
This song is for you mum, I was inspired by my friend Mandie. It is her wedding song and today is their anniversary, when I listened to the song the second time, I knew you would like this one too. I love you mum. xoxooxox
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