“Make peace with silence, and remind yourself that it is in this space that you'll come to remember your spirit. When you're able to transcend an aversion to silence, you'll also transcend many other miseries. And it is in this silence that the remembrance of God will be activated.”...Wayne W. Dyer

I find it hard to say thank you silently and often just say thank you out loud to the universe around me.  Again today I was just captivated by the sheer beauty of the dawn.  My heart raced as I climbed up and down the hill four times this morning.

The western sky was still relatively dark when I set off and there were only five stars left in the sky evident to me where  I was standing.  Four stars in the south and one in the north from where I stood out the front of my house.

I knew today would be beautiful after watching all of Danny Wilten's Videos on Youtube before leaving home this morning in the dark.  I went with an expectant heart,  and as the sun rose today I spoke out to the universe my hearts desire to see my children re united with me.  I saw a spiritual fight going on and I saw that my core beliefs have been questioned over and over again to make me turn away from what I believe. Nothing and no one can change my mind on this.

I stood there reverent in from of the dawning sun camera in one hand and the other hand covering my heart.  I went home four times in excitement.  I seem to do this a lot.  I become so overwhelmed I run home.  Personally, I think I am funny, humorously speaking.  I am so like a child that I want to go and hide behind mummy skirt or something as that is what it feels like to me and I just don't know what to do or where to go for a minute!

Keep your heart expectant and stand with reverence and be silent and just listen.

Images by Mezza - Dawn up on the hill and the Grevillea on the hill at Dawn 4th April 2012

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The most effective way to manage change is to create it. - Peter Drucker

Yes! A spot of fishing..

Fishing is still fishing however these days there is also computer Phishing said the same as fishing.  This is fishing I suppose in all the similar senses of the word and its original meaning.

I don't go fishing any more.  I have no one to go fishing with.  I can't manage it on my own.  I would need help with the bait attachment  successfully and the taking off of the fish I caught.  If I was to catch one I would not know how to gut the fish.

I should not dwell on the past but some explanation is necessary.  When I was married and when I had children we went fishing sometimes.  Not near enough though and when we did I was never allowed to touch the damn things.  Besides that I was probably making sure that three children were not drowning or killing each other or hooking each other up with their sheer casting skills.

I remember fishing at Gleniffer with the three children and Montana was a baby and was in a back pack carrier on her father's back.  He had strategically placed the fish we had caught on a strong skinny tree branch  behind him on the bank.  Perch are really slimy as well.  He was fishing away very happily as Montana wasn't fussing around and was quite quiet on his back.  I came around the corner back from where I had been fishing to see a slime covered Montana.  She was in reach of these fish he had hung up and she had been having a very good time covering herself in slime.  It was pretty yuck and it was very funny.

So, with all that going on  I never really progressed any further than childhood with that skill of tackling up.  All of this doesn't mean I don't like fishing though.  I love fishing.  I am quite good at catching them.  I will sit there with the best of them waiting for that illusive bite and to possibly catch that illusive fish that may just be lurking unaware near my hook.

Sometimes I think I will never ever go fishing again because there is no one to go with.  This makes me feel really sad as I do feel like I missed out somewhere along the line.  Wish I was able to do all this myself.  Even if I could do all of this myself I still would not go fishing alone.  I have a fear of being alone in wide open spaces and so it goes I would need company.  There is no one.

Image by Mezza - Dawn fishing in Urunga April 2012

And when I saw you on the stage, and even more so, now I stand before you, I am awestruck and humbled by your radiance.

I was out early this morning on top of the hill. I didn't venture down towards the water as I normally do.  I was already in a nice position in my pyjamas out of the view of others except my neighbours.  I quite like that.

This morning it seemed to take forever to have sunrise happen.  I went up and down the hill twice before I settled on the position I would stay for a bit. 

Wet grass and rolled up Pj's and bare feet.  How absolutely glorious this is.  I simply came home and rinsed my messy toes under the tap and they were as good as new again.   I was standing there in the bright morning sun with my clean feet and I just felt nice as I stood barefoot on the Earth. I could feel the warmth swimming through me as the power came down over me  and into my eyes from the rays of the dawning sun.  I stood there grateful and simply trying to stay focused and to keep my mind calm for just a few moments.  It was a great morning actually.
 

Being Monday,  I always get very excited and I know why.  It is because today, this afternoon after school, Montana comes to stay the night again.  I love Mondays.  I love the suns rays, I just listening to what God say's.

This morning very early before I went and took photographs, I was sitting in bed with the lap top having woken in the dark due to the time change over and my delicate body clock.  I was looking over stuff and came across the trailer for the brand new Justin Bieber Single off his album aptly titled Boyfriend.  I posted the link on my Facebook and tagged Montana in the link and after that I am in no man's land.  I read what I had written a number of hours later approximately 6 hours later and dead set I would have to wonder where my head is at when I am awake in the dark so early.

I could keep writing when I am in that zone but I feel that I have to stop because I have other things I want to go and do.  So I never actually sit down for an entire day and just write one thing and work on it and work on it.  When it comes out like it does, it could very well keep going.  But I would need someone to do everything else for me.  Go and take my images and stand in the sun for me and make coffee for me and clean the house for me and dig the garden and process my images because man all those things are extremely time consuming.

Hence why I don't spend an extended period of time just writing rhyme.

Dorian Gray quote
..http://www.subzin.com/quotes/Dorian+Gray/I+am+awestruck+and+humbled+by+your+radiance

 Images by Mezza - Dawn in Urunga in early April 2012

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"Time is making fools of us again." — J.K. Rowling

 "Only a white man would believe that you could cut a foot off the top of a blanket and sew it to the bottom of the blanket and have a longer blanket."  -  Attributed to "an old Indian" when told the reason for daylight-saving time.

 

And so it is that Daylight Saving has finally ceased for another year.  I can only say thank goodness for this.  I don't like it and will continue to register my disapproval for this hideous practice of tricking ourselves.

Are we this silly as to think this does not affect us in a bodily fashion.  I think it effects the very core of our being and lowers our immune system.  I have an understanding that the amount of light entering through the eyes of a person directly effects everything that occurs bodily within the person and so to change this by one entire hour and then change it back after a number of months and to do this year after year continually plays havoc with this internal clock.  I have spoken out against the practice since it's inception to our daily lives as a permanent arrangement in N.S.W, Victoria and South Australia back in 1972 after a trial by all states the previous year.

Daylight Saving Time means that there are five separate time zones in Australia at one time whilst it is being implemented.  There have been many positives and many negatives.  It was instigated to save money by using less power because of lighting but really,  do we need to do this now that we all use energy efficient lighting?

The reason I disliked it so much was the challenges of putting children to bed in broad day light became a laborious task I hated.  It was easier to pretend the world had gone mad and live by our own schedule and only fit in when we had to.  The children never liked it as children and I fully supported this decision they had made.  I think that the fine tuning of light coming into the body via the eyes is a finely tuned process as well.  I don't like the idea of playing around with this and our circadian rhythms

 Currently four states and one territory in Australia and they are New South Wales, A.C.T., Victoria, Tasmania and South Australia  as of midnight last night are now all suffering a from of Jet lag. .  This happens because their body clock has been tampered with.  The body clock is responsible for many hormonal exchanges that occur through out the body so to have switches turned on when clearly there is no bodily reason is a result of this practice.

I adamantly oppose daylight savings time. It truly makes no logical sense. It is just another government "smoke and mirrors" trick, that's all. And it is just one more way of them having control over our lives.

Al, Austin, TX
March 11, 2012 5:36am

Images by Mezza - Summer images around Urunga

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I don't know the key to success, but the key to failure is trying to please everybody. ..Bill Cosby

 If you're the one who is always last to leave the job or the work place, you could be a people pleaser.  If your children treat you poorly and carry on about how they are entitled to this and that and you allow this to happen, this is clear people pleasing.  Did you walk away from your marriage and still don't understand what the heck happened, yes you may well be one of these "People Pleaser's".

The people pleaser's of the world struggle with a life of trying to get approval from others. Sometimes this group of people attempt to meet this need by doing  and going over the top.  They cannot seem to say no to people!  Even when they should say no they find themselves accepting another engagement or job or project or volunteering on another committee.  These personality types often suffer emotionally with co-dependent issues concurrently.  The People Pleaser personality has a real fear of failure.  They will kill themselves trying to hide the fact that they have any imperfections.
Where does this start?  My guess is this sort of behaviour is instigated in childhood.

 

 I usually find the issue was a form of abuse in the past history of the "Pleaser".  This person learned as a child to do what had to be done to keep the peace.  Enabling the abuser to carry on abusing.  This is then carried on into the adult life of the person because it is so firmly entrenched into the persons being.  They become one and the same and even the "Pleaser" sees their behaviours as likeable.  They have a strong tendency to get mixed up about being loved and about being needed, often making poor choices because of this.

Build strong relationships with your children, don't be afraid to confront the ones who have hurt you or treated you poorly.  This is one of the hardest ones. Confrontation.  People pleaser's hate confrontation. Break the cycle if this has been what has happened in your family.

Images by Mezza - The Beach at Hungry Head and Dawn in Urunga

Dare to reach out your hand into the darkness, to pull another hand into the light. Norman B. Rice

 The dawns are getting cooler

The cloud opens and light reaches down.

I got up early today and mostly read .  I thought to myself; I will write of the week that was.   I got caught reading instead.   I found some blogs about stars and constellations.  I read about the constellation Orion and how the belt is the saucepan to us here in Australia.  I didn't know this was the same thing until this mornings reading.  I am interested because the sky has been exciting over the last month of March.  Venus and various other heavenly beings lining up in the sky.  It has been very beautiful.

I have negated to go and take photographs early all of this week except for Monday.  I have been so badly  bitten that I felt I needed to recover from the bites that I still have before getting more.  I dislike these little beasts. They drive me fully crazy with the itch that never seems to subside.  It is itchy till it hurts, then it just hurts. Midgee's and mozzies are the pits.

In order to escape this I want to find a business partner who wants to buy something and do the same as me. Doing this with someone else is more what I want to do.   I need to buy some land desperately and grow vegetables and have animals to care for.  I am sick of seeing our dog tied to a lead 24/7 because of where we live.  I am getting sick of sitting in the proverbial dark.  I want someone to reach down and pull me out of this darkness.  I want to be able to really live again.  I have felt a sense of marking time in the last couple of years.  Like I am waiting for something but I don't know what this something is.

Our Backyard

I wish I understood some of this stuff.  I wish I understood why I feel the way I do.  I want to know why I cannot just be happy.  I have to do something about this.  It is a nice house but do we need to live in such luxury?   It is a nice yard for the dog I will grant  this fact.  Phoenix must love her view of the Pacific Ocean but for me,  I can't dig it up so  it isn't an ideal yard for me.  I need to see things growing and fruiting and feeding us.  I need to not see so much useless grass and more useful food plants.  I cringe at buying so much petrol to cut this useless grass.  

So it is radio day today also and so I must get up and finish that off as well.  Montana and I  have a huge show today jam packed with new Australian Music.  We love Australian music.  We love to bring it to you guys.  Today Montana will be there for the entire show.   She said to me on Monday she would, however it is Friday  and a lot changes through the normal school week. 

Montana and Me

 I wish that Montana could plan her life a little more effectively because being let down at the last minute is not an ideal way to carry out a partnership.  She is still 15 years old and so you cannot put an old head on young shoulders.  She will work out whether this is effective in her life or not.  Best if she does this herself to really learn the life's lesson enclosed there within.   Funnily enough no one says much to her.  They say it to me.  I wish they would not.  Don't they think I know this stuff?   How can I physically make her like being there anymore than she already does?  It is impossible short of paying her.  I am not paying her so don't panic.

“Writing is an exploration. You start from nothing and learn as you go.”

 A quote from  E. L. Doctorow  (American Author and Editor, b.1931)
 

Heading down my street

 My usual exploration into the world of reading and learning and writing was called short today and a shopping trip was planned instead.  I missed writing this morning and find that usually I am too tired at night time to do this.  Its hard to concentrate when you wake up early as I do.  By this time I am usually ready to tuck down for the evening.  I will push on because I must and also because I want to.  I learned that my car is small today.  Perhaps we may be a little squishy going to Sydney when we trek to Uluru in 35 days. 

I will workshop what I take and treat it like a huge hiking trip.. Taking the bare essentials and camera gear .. skimping on the beauty products.  Not that I have any but just saying I will be taking very little with me. One pair of shoes should suffice, my steel capped boots. I wore them today.

 The quickest way to know a woman is to go shopping with her.  Marcelene Cox

 http://thinkexist.com/quotes/with/keyword/shopping/

Rattling the Keys to the kingdom - Hilltop Hoods

Some words from their latest album called Drinking from the Sun and from the song "Drinking from the Sun"...

We move mountains and drink from the Sun

We're timeless like riders in the storm

Survivors like the light that rises in the dawn

Listen to this track and you will fall in love with the Hilltop Hoods /  I like to think of this groups sound as very well produced underground as a way of keeping it all real in my head.

I am seeing the Hilltop Hoods along with many other bands with Montana at Groovin the Moo at Maitland in May 2012.  Man am I excited. 

Image by Mezza -  Looking into the sun from here in my back yard at Urunga!

Rattling the Keys to the Kingdom..

Hilltop Hoods from Adelaide Australia are an awesome bunch of fellahs and we are all going nutz with the songs  from the Album "Drinking from the Sun".  The Album went Gold overnight and Platinum a number of days later. Amazing, Aussie Hip Hop is hitting very high spots.

When I start breathing heavily, I scar the beat and the melody

They said that we're dreaming

But we'll keep reaching till leaving heavenly

The key to freedoms said to be, release and leave the memory

Imma weight upon your back and imma razor your lap

We came to conquer,  stage and opera, fade it onto black.

Now hush, hear the voice, so addicted to the,

Rush to fill the void, missing everything we,

Love to feel the joy,  build it up till we,

Crush, Kill, destroy.

Listening to the entire album this week has been a joy.  If you want you may hear this track you may then hear these words and how amazing they are put together and how much meaning there really is here.  Its tremendous.

Listening to the album has also made me reflect on life and how we see things and how that some are very very shallow and really they don't all do what they say they will do.  Tough love works and it also kills and can destroy.  Which then is not love.  Love never destroys.  Love is free will in abundance.

 "Tough Love" is an imaginary figment of some fools imagination probably because it sounded good and quite new age.  Well we are all not fooled by this high end idea of new age wisdom.  There isn't a damn thing that is new for a start.  All of what has been said regarding New Age Philosophies has all been done before.  There is in fact NOTHING NEW UNDER THE SUN....  its already been done.

Images by Mezza - Musical note metal erection of honor to David Helfgott's musical contribution to the local area of Bellingen Shire  NSW.

THEY WILL START OFF AS FIRES THAT BURN WITHIN OURSELVES!

We will burn up with desire and conflict if we do not remember the original teachings and return to a peaceful way of life.

 

When the red star comes, this is the purifier and all living things will be given an opportunity to change from the largest to the smallest.

It is important to understand that these messages will be found upon every living thing, even within our own bodies, even within a droplet of blood.   (Hopi Indian prophesy)

The way through this time is said to be found in our hearts and re-uniting with our spiritual self.

This is a small extract of a Hopi Indian Prophesy.  It is part of my quest to find the secret knowledge of the ancient ones before me.  Sun Gazing and seeing into the sun and allowing the sun to switch my switches on and illuminate my darkest places has been an eye opener of magnificent capacities.  The wonderful changes that have already occurred must be seen as miracles. 

Binary system of O stars Русский: Двойная система О звезд (Photo credit: Wikipedia)Where there is light there is no darkness.   Inside  my body in the darkest reaches, the light touches by way of  entering through my eyes and reaching the pineal gland in my brain.  This is the grand and master switch for turning on this part of your brain that is akin to the ancient knowledge.  With out some kind of awakening all of this will seem fairly remote and what they call double dutch.





http://ascendingstarseed.wordpress.com/2011/11/08/the-coming-of-the-red-kachina-hopi-prophecy/

The cure for anything is salt water - sweat, tears, or the sea.

~Isak Dinesen..

Rocks on the wall at Urunga NSW

Tears are said to cleanse the soul.  When we are sick we are told to sweat it out.  When there is a skin malady often salt water is the curative.  I like to get into the salt water as often as possible to avail myself of the healing qualities of the oceans water soaked in sunshine.

Image by Mezza -  The Rock wall at Urunga NSW

I find that having hope is a way of hanging on while my tendrils attach again to the seemingly shifty trellis of life that I am growing in.

Mary Peters 2012...Sentimental Rox

Old Butter factory still hanging on and trading.  Some times its vital to re invent yourself.  Just like the butter factory.

Image by Mezza- Old Butter factory

Be modest! It is the kind of pride least likely to offend. Jules Renard (1864 - 1910)

My modest bean trellis does not offend me.  It is humble in its appearance but does a super job and its high to accommodate the sprawling beans.

 

Hope is a waking dream  - Aristotle ( 384BC - 322BC) 

Taken from Diogenes Laertius, " Lives of Eminent Philosophers"  

The beans are climbers and are always looking for the best place for their little tendrils to attach to.  They never give up and are always reaching for new heights.  I find that having hope is a way of hanging on while my tendrils attach again to the seemingly shifty trellis of life that I am growing in. 

The quotations page - http://www.quotationspage.com/subjects/hope/ 

Image by Mezza -  The humble bean in flower doused in water 

Determine never to be idle…It is wonderful how much may be done if we are always doing.

Thomas Jefferson

Dawn with sheeted water at Urunga

 One foot after another,  keep going at it and if you are one of those that don't tire, you will taste the sweetness of success.  Mary Peters 2012

Image by Mezza - Dawn on open Appeture

Gratitude is the fairest blossom which springs from the soul.

— Henry Ward Beecher (1813-1887)

Just say thank you!

When you see something that blows your mind in nature just acknowledge what you see and stand and say thank you out loud back to the Universe.  The Universe understands your language and understands and feels your gratitude. The universe is waiting for you to notice it is still there waiting for you. 

There is such a thing as divine providence.  Nature is the first port of call if you want to re-connect to this.
 love Mezza
 Quote webpage - http://www.wisdomportal.com/Gratitude/Gratitude-Quotes.html

Image by Mezza - Bilbergia Bromiliad

What once were minuscule buds are now flowers in the same garden bed of life, perfumed and full of colour and and the magic of light..by Mary-Ellen Peters 2012.

 I named my daughters Sunshine and Star.... respectively for a reason. 

 Think about it for one second ( that's if you bother to read this) ... I am not fleet footed with no cause, rhyme or reason, The genetic coding is what plots this course of ours!

There are wings on the heels of my feet .. I am fleet footed, quick to act, and my eyes see beyond this place into the farthermost reaches of this universe / way beyond the stars..way beyond the needs of our human form! We are all children of light and light travels fast... Mercurial minds join the light-workers - united together to repel the darkness all around us now.. .. They want you to hate the SUN / don't do it!

But I also must add that this is a little out there and I would not blame people for thinking all sorts of things reading this. Keep an open mind is all that I would ask of anyone.."

This time is a really important time in which we are all living. The sun will send out vibrations like we in our lives have not seen before. Things are happening, and I feel these vibrations.

 A few months back I really had a huge awakening with the plants and how they were responding to certain influences. When you slow right down and watch this stuff .. I have to say it is amazing. Daily new things have been opening up like a flower coming into a fullness of bloom and colour.
 

Not everyone can or is able to do this. Those that can must continue to gather up the ones who can't or haven't and lead them gently into the light.
We have been conned severely and we have been separated from the true source of what is necessary to fulfil our potential as beings of light slowed down by gravity and magnetism for such a time as this.
 

Humanity has walked this earth and perhaps other places in the universe as well for longer than my imagination cares to remember BUT my genetic coding remembers every bit of it and this is the important bit.
 

This is a blink in the eye of the Universe We cannot replicate these endless capacities held here. Not even with all of our technologies which are moving it seems at the speed of light to us. We are struggling to catch up to our full capacity. It is the ones bringing the light that will illuminate the darkness that will fall on the earth caused by the dark minds. The minds of that part of humanity who are racked with greed and selfish existence. This is the darkness we must illuminate.

  

Images by Mezza - Collage  of images 

I have used these images over the last year in this blog on this journey of exploration of love, light and Unity. 

Buddha says All that we are is the result of what we have thought.

This is a true fact.  It is so much better to see love and goodness and be at peace with yourself and nature.   I blogged yesterday about this balance.  This sort of continuous meditation process can really begin to free your mind of the clutter that holds people back from achieving their true potential in life and the end result should be happiness.   It is a state of just simply being. 

One actually chooses to be happy or not.  I know this is a hard call.  I have taken years to achieve such a thing.  We try and try and eventually being a true soldier to the cause pays off and, finally we see the end result start to manifest.  It is our thoughts that have produced this.  If we continue to look away from the natural it will only end up  manifesting things that are out of balance with our true nature.

Close your eyes for five seconds and see your self in your minds eye and  hold that image with love and feel things start to  manifest that are good for you.  It is up to you to do this as it cannot possibly hurt you,  I cannot make you do this.  What I can say is this,  it has a positive effect on you which in turn influences your electromagnetic energy you emit therefore this in turn influences all other energy matter around it.  This is how it happens and really it could not be more simple.

Image by Mezza - House on the hill with the windows ablaze with sunshine.

Staring into Nature helps balance out any pain energy from your body. Mary Peters

Beauty incomprehensible..

 Our vibrational energy is no different to that of the Earth in which we inhabit  According to many scientists over the recent years we share many similar traits to the Earth.  There is much to be drawn from this.  Our capabilities can be given a charge if we learn how to activate the Pineal Gland in the Brain.

This can be done by Sun Gazing and meditation.  Stand on the ground in a great place that isn't grass. Do this immediately after looking into the sun if this is what you normally do as part of your daily rituals.  Then, simply just close your eyes.  Relax and begin to see yourself in your "minds eye" and hold this picture in your mind for approximately five seconds. 
This is meditation!   When you do this, you cause a change to occur in your brain in this area of your Pineal Gland.   This is a good thing.  I have seen on a video that this causes the collapse of a particle of some description but this is the gateway to these other gifts that we hold.  Reiki is no more and no less than the laying on of hands in a similar nature.  A love nature. Love being the free will of God.

We submit to this form of electromagnetic energy and miracles occur.  This electro magnetic energy is the connecting energy of God. It is the vital force so often spoken about in scripture.  I am very happy to submit to this energy.  God created this magnificent universe and if I am here with purpose just like everything else then I am happy to submit to this.

Image by Mezza - Dawn from on the Hill

The perception of time is shortened when one is "having fun".

Fun is the enjoyment of pleasure and, according to Johan Huizinga, "an absolutely primary category of life, familiar to everybody at a glance right down to the animal level."

Here is a picture of some kids having fun in the Bellingen river in the very late afternoon.  The time was well after 6.00pm in the evening.

 Fun may often have little to no logical basis, and opinions on whether or not an activity is fun may differ. I for instance find doing housework enjoyable.  I absolutely love the punishing work of Garlic and find this very enjoyable and it borders on being fun.  Why?  Because I laugh a lot and that is good for you and so that is fun to me.

One might be close to the truth saying that we can have more fun simply because we use the Daylight Saving System of time.  We get more daylight for our hours.  It always bamboozles me, I get it mixed up constantly and I personally was not in favor of it being introduced fun or no fun.  It upsets kids routines and their very important body clocks.  They ought ban the practice I feel.

Image by Mezza - Fun at the Bellingen Bridge in the Bellingen River.

I really appreciate family. I really can't imagine life without them!

Quote from Rapper and actor - Ice Cube...

Well I can.  I have lots of family but through all these years I have been held away from them.   All of them!   This happened when I was a child and as a  young adult and now too, even my own children as well.   The curse has marched on unabated.  I am a good person and really wish no malice or harm to any peoples in general.  But it is those injustices in life that can burr me up into abstract action. 

My girl friend 'Texsy was killed 6 months ago, run down needlessly on the side of the road in the township of Bellingen while she made her way home as she had done many times before.  This has turned out to be a  tainted accident but thank goodness there were a number of witnesses to this tragedy.     It was announced last week in the local newspaper as  front page news  that charges have finally been laid against the 46 year old driver responsible.  This has brought to the fore of my realization  that this area has an undertow of nastiness and judgementality worse than any  racism I have ever come across.

The absolute in your face sort of stuff that can make people turn real bad, people who ought look in the mirror before saying the things that have been said.   Some how these commentators think they are a class above my now deceased friend.  Some of what I have been subjected to taking into my brain has once again traumatized me.  I suppose this is the attitude at the IGA in Bellingen as well.  I would not be surprised at the lunchroom conversation at that workplace, especially having a witch on the front counter casting her constant spells of division and treachery!

Personal attacks on the relatives of Texsy have been rife and are on the rise now.   A town full of folk saying that this drink driver is a "good bloke", and that even though he ran over someone and left the scene of the crime, he is still a "good bloke" and alright in their eyes and that its ludicrous he be charged with this crime as she was "no one" and he is a family man!

"No one!"  Since when did this become the norm for the way in which serious crimes are summed up by a community at large. It is very sad and all of this highlights to me,  that these young people are either very very insensitive or just plain stupid.   The type of stupidity that is evident here in this shows they  have no idea of  what grief can do to a human being where death is concerned.  Especially a death of such a caliber as this one is.  The court case is being heard for mention on the 10th May  2012 at the Bellingen Magistrates Court Hyde Street Bellingen.

This has been a particularly difficult time and its not over yet by far.  It seems to me that people do not allow anyone to change.  Texsy had been in a stable and happy relationship for over three years at the time of her death and was working as a nurse in Nambucca Heads.  To say that she was anything else other than a "Champion" is an outrage., she had a heart bigger than Texas itself.

What I have had to bear in my emotions now regarding this has un-nerved me and I feel very uneasy. I don't like that I am so aware of this disgusting culture of discrimination that has no basis. I am certainly horrified  that this even occurs after someone else has occasioned the death.  To hear that the towns people even would go so far as to say that Texsy deserved this is despicable.  I won't be here for the first court case.   I am going on a trip to the Northern Territory during the period when this case sits.  I will be around for the subsequent court sessions though. 

"I am trying to love you and defend your honor for you from afar Texsy.  We all miss you always my sweet honeychild, Death does not douse the heart of love  MWHA xxox"

Image by Mezza - Dawn on the water

LOVE

There is no such thing as the will of God apart from your own divine will. If God wanted life to be as mundane as of a singular expression, he never would have created you into being, nor would he have given you the will to express your own purposeful uniqueness.

What is called the will of God was created by man so that he could govern and control his brothers. Yet if you believe that teaching and see God’s will as separate from yours, then you will always be in the battle of his will versus yours, for you will want to do certain things and feel you must; yet the will of God says you must not.

God is not separate from you. You and he are one and the same. Your will is his will. Whatever you want to do is what you term divine providence, divine will. So you are never in conflict with destiny, for destiny is not preordained; it is ordained wholly by you. Everything you think creates your moments to come. Your very "now" moment is simply the product of the thoughts you had moments ago. That is the science of God. The only thing the Father wills for you is to experience the totality of life that he is, according to the feelings within your soul. 

Why?  So that you come to understand what joy is and the unconditional love that God has for you and all life. If you feel you are at odds with God, perhaps you should reconstruct your image of what God is, for I tell you he is not all-loving if you must fight him.

In the beginning when the Father contemplated his most splendid self, he expanded himself into the splendor of light. It was from that expansion in light that each of you became God in the form of a unique, singular movement so that you would continue the expansion of thought into forever.  In order for God to be an ever-expanding uniqueness through your contemplative thoughts, it was necessary to give each of you the power to create uniquely from the thought that he is.  He did this by giving you the action called free will. The principle of will was given to each of you so that you would be unique and sovereign, so that you would be the creator of your own truth, sovereign in your own understanding.

What gives you your divine essence is that you have the freedom to embrace and experience whatever thoughts you desire. And that divine essence, called free will, is love. It is the gift of love from God to each of you. Each of you has the divine essence of will so that you have the freedom to create uniquely whatever ideal you envision through thought.

Love in its ultimate form is the desire of the Father to allow the life that he is to be  ongoing through each of you. The purest form of love is the freedom of will that the Father gave each of you so that through the exercise of that will you would explore the dimensions of thought and expand yourself into a greatness, which expands the mind of God.

Free will gives you a uniqueness — yet a oneness with the Father — that permits your thought processes to have their own creative flow. And every moment you create through the contemplation and expansion of your own thoughts, you imitate the same love that the Father had for himself when he created you into being, for creation is the act of bringing love from within your being into a unique, free-moving, creative form, which will live on into forever.

From the illustrious moment of your birth, the Father gave each of you through pure, unconditional love this covenant: Whatever you think, whatever you desire, the Father shall become. Through that covenant — that still is and always shall be — each of you became the heir to the totality of what the Father is. Thus the Father always gives you all that he has become so that you can experience and understand the totality of life that he is. He is the basis of the fulfillment of your dreams.  But who is the dream-maker? You!

What are your dreams made of?  Thought, God, life. You can take from the totality of thought that God is and create any truth, any attitude, any desire you wish. Whatever truth or attitude you create in your thought processes, the Father, life, readily becomes. Whatever ideal of thought you desire, the Father freely manifests through the matter that he is so that you may experience it. To give you an example of God’s love for you, let us look at the creature called a snake, an ideal created by a God for the purpose of extended life in a life chain. This creature has a long, slender body with many muscles and many bones. It moves very swiftly and has a very big head with fangs that can puncture you as its only defense. Though its bite can bring down a man of great size within moments, any man could hack the snake to bits or easily crush it. Now let us take two Gods. The first, who has a scientific mind, sees the snake as a wonderful creation, for it can move very swiftly, even without feet, and has a beautiful pattern and color to its skin, and a marvelous skeleton that seems to go on and on and on.
The second God comes up and says that the snake is hideous and vile, it is an awful creature because its bite is dangerous, and it can kill a man.

To the Father, the truth of all life, all things are pure in their state of being. All things are innocent in their expression of the life that he is. It is only each entity’s attitude toward something that makes it a beautiful or a vile, ugly thing. It is only we Gods — who have the creative ability to take from the thought that the Father is, contemplate it, and alter it — who judge something that is really pure and innocent as something other than being. 

How great is the love of God, which is the life substance that the snake is, that he gives you, his greatest creation, the right to cast your attitude and will upon the snake however you choose. The love that the life source has for you is so great that it will become any one thing that you desire through thought. The Father will be anything you wish him to be. He will allow you to alter him in any way you wish to alter him. The life that he is will become vile or ugly or vulgar, or it will become to the height of beauty, however you wish to see it.

Now is that not a wondrous thing, that the Father will become however you perceive and desire him to be simply through the whims of your thought processes? Indeed it is. That is love. You can do with thought whatever you will, for the Father’s love for you is steadfast.

No matter how vile or wretched you perceive the life that God is, to him it is still him. It is still God. It is still pure, and it is still loved. That promise is unshakable, for the Father is of himself wholly without attitudes;  he simply is. 

The love between you and God has no condition. If the Father in any way censored your thoughts or restricted you from experiencing the totality of the life that he is, then you would not have the freedom to continue his expansion into forever. Neither would you gain the wisdom from your adventures in thought in order to understand the love and joy that the Father truly is in his supreme state of being.

God loves you in complete freedom to do as you will, for your will is his will.  That is the covenant between God and his sons, God and himself. Whatever you do, wherever you venture unto him, you are always loved. He allows you to do whatever you desire, for he knows that you are ongoing, that nothing can ever take you from him. The Father has created no thing superior to himself that can remove your life force ever, so you will always  be. And when your life here is spent, there will be yet another, with the freedom to create it however you choose.

You will live this life and all of those to come according to your will. And what has given you the freedom to do that is that which loves you, that which is called your Father, God Almighty, the lover of all things. You are free entities. How? Through the power called will and the ability called love.

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Our nature is the mind. And the mind is our nature.

Bodhidharma 

The same birds are out down where I go each day.  It is like they want to become friends.  I blame the bip sound on my camera.  I also always felt a  mad connection to birds.

Image by Mezza - Dawn in Urunga 14th March 2012

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Nature Quote of the Day

“For it was not into my ear you whispered, but into my heart. It was not my lips you kissed, but my soul.”

Judy Garland

Judy was a thoughtful beautiful person as well as a talented actress.  This quote tells me that she felt very deeply about things.  I too feel this way at times.  I feel this way mostly about my children.  I always remember only the good times.  There is zero point in remembering the bad times as they are gone forever.

My daughter Montana is kissing her friend having a great time.  Montana is  a Gemini like Ms Garland and a thoughtful and deep person who has an infectious personality and a loveable demeanour. I think that Montana would be awesome on the stage as she is a very funny person with a great sense of humour and a wonderfully balanced way of looking at life.  She is growing up nicely.

Image -  Montana Baldwin 2010

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Tears are words the heart cannot express

The girls were growing up..this was nearly seven years ago now.  Tahlie and Montana were in my bedroom being beautiful.

When we cry whether we are sad or happy it is because there is no words that can sum up the feeling at that moment and the spirit in your body responds with tears to wash away the sense of feeling overwhelmed.

While crying, your situation is sort of eased in a way.  For those of us that have cried gallons of tears, it is a relief to spend many days without shedding very many.  It means a lot to me any way.  I have still shed a tear or two but it has been different as its been far less.

Let me see from 30 times or more in three days to perhaps none over the last three days and a single occurrence while Montana visited because she overwhelms me with her sheer presence I feel.  I love her that much.  I think that looking into the sun has sparked this change in my body to feel enlivened again and to rely on my instinctual being and to feel more at peace with the world around me.

Image by Mezza -  Montana on the 19th April 2005