So many years ago a bright star was born and people predicted that it would make the whole world shine. That star my dear, is you! Wishing you a very Happy Birthday.

 

17 years on Planet Earth, so this meansHappy Birthday Montana-Star. .  Yayyay!  I hope your entire day is awesome.

Who is Montana-Star:  My baby, she is my third child and she is beautiful.  Her nature is like pure love.
She was a little girl who whence she came, was already well advanced on her journey to the infinite. 

Today we celebrate another trip around the sun for her.  Its quite a journey each year as we hurtle around the universe at break neck speed.

Montana-Star at 16 and today she turns 17 years old.

Reflecting on the final year of her Secondary Education and the young woman she has grown into, she seems fairly clear on her road ahead.   I hope I have imparted enough knowledge to her as a woman. I feel totally ripped off because the world was not supportive and therefore I fell down and I missed her so bad for the last two years. 

I am sad that the little girl is gone as I  missed her going.  I feel like I never said good bye to that little child.   My little bum as I used to playfully call her.  Little bum the name, was because she wore knickers when she was really little (14months).   I always thought she had the cutest tiniest little bum in knickers.   The name was shortened,  as mothers do talking rubbish, it was reduced to just little bum.

Montana has a relationship of her own to negotiate now.  This is still new for her even though this has been for some time in earth months.  It's still new, and its a trial  for both her and Anaan at times I am sure.  It isn't ever easy being this age.

I wish for her everything a mother could wish for her. I wish I could hug her for hours and have wonderful mother daughter shopping trips for pretty things like young girls love and movies.   If and when this test is over I am going to spoil her the best I can. 

There will be a time that I can compensate for all of this. Life is like that.  I have to have patience.  I have much to learn still where patience is concerned.

I didn't plan a birthday party or anything of this nature for her.  I would love to do this but alas it would all go to the clouds like most of everything else does.  I know  now not to plan anything, those big disappointments are way too difficult one on top of another. 

It surely is hard missing your babies.   I have to endure this though.  I must not fall down and give in no matter how hard or horrid it feels,  I must stay strong.  

Acceptance of the Principals of nature (natural justice) always helps to hold it all together for me.   So this is what I will trust in.   Everything happens because it should.  

Happy Birthday my little baby Girl I hope your day is special ...  you will always be my little baby girl.  I love you to the moon and back.

Images @ Eminpee Fotography