“We are shaped by our thoughts; we become what we think. When the mind is pure, joy follows like a shadow that never leaves.” Buddha
Everyday my mind is choked back with thoughts that are at times uncontrollable. I don't know how to see to the end of never being able to be a mother again to any of my children. I have been kicked so hard when I probably needed my kids the most. Especially my issues surrounding my son. He did not behave how a man truly would behave. He was unequivocally wrong in his entire actions there. Taking me against my will like that also was very destructive as it brought up feelings of when I had been taken hostage back when I was 19. I have indeed been to the very brink of hell inside this situation. Then to watch it eat like a cancer my relationship with my honey child, Montana. I could see it happening but I could not stop it. That is the hardest part to take.
Image by Mezza - My shadow Urunga 2012
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