“Love is hard to find, hard to keep, and hard to forget.”

~ Alysha Speer  ~

The reason this quote is pertinent is because I wanted my son to be just so badly, five years on IVF and various treatments and finally I conceived him.  He hasn't lived with me since he was 16 years old and these days I am not good enough for him.

I find it quite astounding there are those that think I could forget about him forever.  Not exactly sure how this is happens on the real.  So far, I have only found it possible to continue to love and remember daily.  This creates a strength inside me that I didn't know I had, I persevere.

Despite being in a stable relationship for approximately eight years now, I still grieve the loss of my marriage because it represented my 'family' to me,  it was my family.   Some are alright with the set being smashed, and some will never quite come to terms with the terms of the ridiculous nature of the situation as it was left when all was said and done.

Truth always floats to the top and like most things we wish it happened faster - all things are happening in perfect timing and there are no mistakes and that is how I manage to survive.

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