When I use my life in any way that makes another person's life better, is when I feel most alive.

~Liz Murphy~

Looking out my backdoor highlights to me how blessed I am in reality.

My children are healthy and alive and they all have employment.  I am so proud of  my three children.  After a number of years of serious all consuming emotional pain, I am presently learning  to separate myself from the emptiness that rises up inside when my thoughts are focused on them. 

I am getting better at getting a healthy distance from my own emotions now, or so it appears.  I am not sure if this is healthy, but I have to do this to survive long enough and to gain the ability to hope this changes before I die.  This will be the day I will be able to say. . .  I am now truly happy.  

If a person feels little pain.. they in turn also feel little joy.   This is temperament, and it needs to be balanced.

 Images @ Eminpee Fotography