Their Born . . .

Bellinger River at Sunset


Black . .  I know someday you will have a beautiful life but why? Eddie Vedder

Their Born   . . .

You three will always be
 bright bright lights..shooting-stars 
in my personal sight... 

You're  in my heaven circling by
Blessings held up it seems 
way too high... 

 Fleeting lights in the sky at night
They remind me 
how you made a fight
and left..
Once, we never would have come adrift
Yet I longingly want to reconnect...
So, I ask
why was it me you set the task?
Everything is universal in this space..
There was no better time, and no other place...

You should have seen us
when we saw you're tiny faces!
When all is said and done
I thought we had oceans of fun
It became difficult
I became difficult ..
Trying to be perfect was such a damaging insult

In my dreams I hold you
And I try to tell you that I love you.
The Universal law of everything
seers me with hot coals brandishing
They sung you away from the home
and from the native streets you all roamed

 Eternally wakeful to  police this...
with many questions Why?
So much love held in the bosom of eternity
I am you and you are me
encoded  deep.
 
 I never wanted to see any of you go 
I wanted you to stay
Forever
Close by, near by not far
This is why I look to the stars
They seem just as far
  
 Love was once dished up on buttered toast
Because
Right then that's just what mattered most
We lit tacky birthday candles..
had parties with out a care
so there
and it was divine
 and an  honor
To bestow that amount of love upon ya

  I aspire to see
a beautiful life's journey
For all of you three ..
For eternity I will love you ..

Nothing can prize my love from you
Bonne soire
I know you will go so far,
My love rushes back Spiraling
Back towards the Sun!

To complete the journey we begin.  

I was apart of the IVF program for five years in the state of Queensland.   I experienced the loss of many babies who were not yet formed past the 32 cell stage of life.  This was a terrible time to transgress as a woman, not having the understanding of what IVF was and what it entailed by the rest of society at that time.  The world was still unsure.  The Jury on this was still out.

I gave up and miracles came one after another and three beautiful children were born from my body.    i got to carry these guys in my belly and it was the most wonderful time.  It was not with out issues but it was in hindsight the most amazing time to have drained every bit that I did from being Pregnant in loving my babies while they were in my belly.

Images @ Eminpee Fotography