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Monday, September 24, 2012

We do not heal the past by dwelling there; we heal the past by living fully in the present

Marianne Williamson

SAM 7917 The BaRN  

Yes! get back on the horse and ride.  Get galloping at that.  Don't wait to think too much about it. All you may do then is stay right there where you are and stay stuck.

I, myself need to realize that my own happiness does not depend on others. My happiness does not depend on  whether certain people  are in my life and or are apart of my life.  It is totally reachable to be just happy. Happiness is a state of mind.  You simply make a choice to be "HAPPY".

I am always going to miss my children.  These three kids .. my children who I grew in my belly and whom I loved so very very dearly.  There is no denial of these facts. However, I dont  have to let them continue to steal my joy from the life I have left now.  So the answer is No!  I don't have to give them this permission to steal my joy.   So that was simple, I need to make a decision and stick to it. 

I need to choose to live in the now! Live in the present.  Stay in the "now" moments.  There was so much from the past I want to hang onto though. My pig as it was pointed out to me as years ago.  (Long story)

This is all perfectly understandable . I  perhaps could hang onto the history but not the emotion.  If you don't know the history on what is concerning you, then "they" could put it over you.  "They" constitute the government or the authoritative ruling powers!

It isn't healthy for my children  to harbor such great and serious rifts of human spirit against a mother who tried as hard and as long as what I tried to be the best mother.  Whether they like it or not this will effect their health because the mere thoughts they have had will cause them serious illness.  Those sorts of actions have almost immediate karma attached to them.  It manifests in ways that ordinary doctors are baffled with.  This is the case though.

Hectic as ..So I think this is a 21st Century witch burning and I also think most are ok with it   Everyone else and that is  accept me.  I don't consider it warranted.   I have done nothing except have a normal reaction to an abnormal situation of living with a conniving alcoholic with multiple issues thrown in on top of my own more than complex life issues.  Yes, I was an above average mother and for this to have been my only teacher, I taught myself very well.  Woman with mothers of their own cannot do it.  Why are mine so hard on me?

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