Well I can. I have lots of family but through all these years I have been held away from them. All of them! This happened when I was a child and as a young adult and now too, even my own children as well. The curse has marched on unabated. I am a good person and really wish no malice or harm to any peoples in general. But it is those injustices in life that can burr me up into abstract action.
My girl friend 'Texsy was killed 6 months ago, run down needlessly on the side of the road in the township of Bellingen while she made her way home as she had done many times before. This has turned out to be a tainted accident but thank goodness there were a number of witnesses to this tragedy. It was announced last week in the local newspaper as front page news that charges have finally been laid against the 46 year old driver responsible. This has brought to the fore of my realization that this area has an undertow of nastiness and judgementality worse than any racism I have ever come across.
The absolute in your face sort of stuff that can make people turn real bad, people who ought look in the mirror before saying the things that have been said. Some how these commentators think they are a class above my now deceased friend. Some of what I have been subjected to taking into my brain has once again traumatized me. I suppose this is the attitude at the IGA in Bellingen as well. I would not be surprised at the lunchroom conversation at that workplace, especially having a witch on the front counter casting her constant spells of division and treachery!
Personal attacks on the relatives of Texsy have been rife and are on the rise now. A town full of folk saying that this drink driver is a "good bloke", and that even though he ran over someone and left the scene of the crime, he is still a "good bloke" and alright in their eyes and that its ludicrous he be charged with this crime as she was "no one" and he is a family man!
"No one!" Since when did this become the norm for the way in which serious crimes are summed up by a community at large. It is very sad and all of this highlights to me, that these young people are either very very insensitive or just plain stupid. The type of stupidity that is evident here in this shows they have no idea of what grief can do to a human being where death is concerned. Especially a death of such a caliber as this one is. The court case is being heard for mention on the 10th May 2012 at the Bellingen Magistrates Court Hyde Street Bellingen.
This has been a particularly difficult time and its not over yet by far. It seems to me that people do not allow anyone to change. Texsy had been in a stable and happy relationship for over three years at the time of her death and was working as a nurse in Nambucca Heads. To say that she was anything else other than a "Champion" is an outrage., she had a heart bigger than Texas itself.
What I have had to bear in my emotions now regarding this has un-nerved me and I feel very uneasy. I don't like that I am so aware of this disgusting culture of discrimination that has no basis. I am certainly horrified that this even occurs after someone else has occasioned the death. To hear that the towns people even would go so far as to say that Texsy deserved this is despicable. I won't be here for the first court case. I am going on a trip to the Northern Territory during the period when this case sits. I will be around for the subsequent court sessions though.
"I am trying to love you and defend your honor for you from afar Texsy. We all miss you always my sweet honeychild, Death does not douse the heart of love MWHA xxox"
Image by Mezza - Dawn on the water
No comments:
Post a Comment
Let me know you were here!