“A rock pile ceases to be a rock pile the moment a single man contemplates it, bearing within him the image of a cathedral.” - Antoine De Saint-Exupery

With me everything I do starts with a thought.  Somehow I think we are all alike in this way.  We contemplate in our minds what we need to achieve.  One must see it there first before it can have a proper conception. I go to the beach looking for heart shaped rocks.  Today I found a heart shaped shadow. Can you find it in my image here?

Image by Mezza - Beach Rocks

Odd how much it hurts when a friend moves away - and leaves behind only silence. Pam Brown

So glad I was an avid Photographer even when I was TEN.. lol!  Michelle Poslla you were so so dear to me! Ily xoox

We all went separate ways as people inevitably do. We all started school in 1965.  My bestest friends were Michell Sofia, Margaret Stuart, Debbie Jones and Debbie Batterham.  Michelle Sofia pictured here on my front verandah when we were ten.  Michelle and I were blood sisters as we jokingly touted.  We had in fact cut our flesh and mixed our blood together to do this.  We were TRUE see even back then. We sadly lost our dear friend Debbie way too early but she was a mum and has a beautiful daughter Nikki.  She would be so so so proud.  I missed her a lot when I left Stanthorpe in 1972. I held those memories close to me through the hell I encountered after leaving the safety of everyone I had ever known and loved.
This was me when I  was nine at Stanthorpe State Primary School.  A golden age of going to school.  The National anthem was God Save the Queen and
we lined up on parade each day to salute to the flag and march into our classrooms with the preciseness of a soldier, we had to Mrs Armstrong, Mr Webb, Mr Waite or Mrs Harvey or Mr Mather were all watching our every moove.  The teacher pictured here is Mr Mather and he used to throw chalk at us in class and hit us in where ever he got us, he was fairly accurate as well. I am fairly sure he married Miss Reinhart who was my Grade 2 teacher.  I have found all of my old friends faces on facebook.  So clock up another major success to the old Face crack as I affectionately call it.   So now we have found just about everyone!

Stanthorpe State Primary School Marsh Street Stanthorpe 1968 ( I am pictured to the left of the teacher)

The pain of the mind is worse than the pain of the body. - Publilius Syrus

 The pain of  a broken heart or heart ache shows up in the brain via an MRI  as the same as if your arm was just severely burned.  I constantly say similar and I do feel like this.  If someone could see the pain they would surely want to graft something on to fix it.

I sometimes feel that I am surely going to just disappear I hurt so much.  It is the most severe of emotions and I try to put on a brave face through that excruciating pain.  No wonder I feel so much.  My senses are all on overload.  I  know what it is like having burns to your skin as well spending quite a time in hospital with burns after a gas explosion.  That was the worst pain I had ever felt to date.

Read more about this here because it is truly interesting.  I guess it would help me if my friends had some idea of the extent of this pain.  Perhaps then they may understand why I can't go anywhere.  My burns are hurting.

 

http://edition.cnn.com/2011/HEALTH/03/28/burn.heartbreak.same.to.brain/index.html
Images by Mezza and Montana

Although our steps are ordered, our attitude however is adaptable, so just be grateful. Mary Peters 2011

What is an attitude: according to Wikipedia an attitude Psychologically speaking is
a person's perspective toward a specified target and way of saying and doing things.

The Jewish Talmud warns.. Beware of too much laughter, for it deadens the mind and produces oblivion.
I am not sure that too much laughter is bad  for you.  I hear it is the best and cheapest medicine that a person could source for ones own health.  Trust the Jews, they killed Jesus and they want to kill your mirthfulness as well.  Well if you are not studying the Talmud, Laugh.  Laugh like there is no tomorrow.  Tomorrow is promised to  no man or woman so today Laugh! With a attitude of mirth, happiness and gratitude you cannot go wrong in your day.

Image -  Montana-Star  with Barbie Pj's on her head. January 2007

"It's on the strength of observation and reflection that one finds a way. So we must dig and delve unceasingly." - Claude Monet

These landscapes of water and reflection have become an obsession."  Claude Monet.


Like my learned friend I have quoted here, I too have developed an obsession for reflection both in myself and in nature.  Not sure of the direction this is taking me but it is obviously part of the journey that I am on in this dimension.

http://painting.about.com/library/biographies/blartistquotesmonet.htm

Image by Mezza - Dawn Reflections low tide Urunga NSW

"The first time you see something that you have never seen before, you almost always know right away if you should eat it or run away from it." — Scott Adams.

I love making biscuits.  I love to get the old recipes out and make those biscuits from my childhood.  They taste the same because its the same recipe. 
I make Jam drops and Anzac Biscuits like it was a religion. I made these biscuits all at the same time.

Me in my kitchen cooking biscuits / Urunga 2011

Today I made one batch for a friend because I know that Jam Drops are his all time favourite biscuit in the world and I made a batch of Anzac's for us here at home.  My friend has been very good to us and therefore it is only fitting I return his good natured hospitality with likewise and something he loves. 

He said they were the best he had tasted since his childhood also.  He used to make the same biscuit with his own mother and he said he would always make one big biscuit with numerous jam holes place throughout the entire biscuit.  This makes me want to make one just like this and make flowers out of them.  I plan to make one just like this for him the next time he visits us.

This is the recipe from my Family Cook book, I thought you may love the scanned image of this.

Anzac biscuit Recipe taken from the Commonsense Cookery Book

Standard Jam Drop Recipe

 When my children were small I made Anzac Biscuits that were fortified with all sorts of ingredients ie. Wheat-germ, Tahini, ground nuts etc etc to make them so healthful for the eating that there was never  a problem if they ever wanted to have another.  These biscuits were a meal on their own just about.  I guess the kids don't know I did this because I loved them not because I wanted to be called a liar.  Very sad to have to withstand such scrutiny of your past mistakes and what you thought were small glories that turned out to be not seen as such but seen as dysfunctional lies.  I thought all parents did this sort of thing.  No one was a surprised as me to find out that everything I did as a parent was faulty!  Wow what a mistake it was having kids if I was this bad as a parent.  I am saddened that I am left to think this way.  Oh well I still love making biscuits.

 Images by Brice- Mary cooking and The family Cookbook scanned images.